do I look like I freakin' care?!

MOVED

2009-06-03T18:54:00.000+07:00

to here.

sometimes I wonder how life would be if...

2009-01-11T19:20:00.002+07:00

1. Mom never had an abortion... and never left the boyfriend that got her pregnant in the first place... (that would be easy... no me!)
2. Mom didn't insist on my dad staying back in Germany.
3. I had my dad around growing up.
4. In fact if that what happened, I might have him around now! Oh. Wow.
5. Mom had remarried.
6. I never agreed on 'adopting' a big brother.

I imagine life would be a lot easier. Less stress for mom = less stress for me! Oh, I wish!

All about relationship :P

2008-12-19T16:07:00.002+07:00

You Have Him Totally Hooked

Your guy is all yours - and happily so.

He loves being around you, and he totally sees you as a couple.

It looks like you two have a great future together - if you want it!

Do You Have Him Hooked?

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful

But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself

You're the perfect blend of independent and caring

You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

More blog things...

2008-12-19T15:45:00.003+07:00

Your Cupcake Says You Are Your Own Biggest Fan

At parties, you stand out from the crowd. You're a fairly unusual person, and you can't hide it.

You hardly have any restraint. You only hold yourself back when absolutely necessary.

The most important thing in your life is your family.

You are dominant, vain, and a bit of a show off. To know you is to worship you.

The Cupcake Test

Your Christmas is Modern

Your wish for the New Year is more happiness.

For you, Christmas is a spiritual holiday. You can't separate it from your beliefs.

You are patient when it comes to Christmas. You don't celebrate too early, and you don't like seeing holiday decorations in October.

You like Christmas traditions, but you're not uptight about them. You do things your way.

You have some preferred ways of celebrating Christmas, but you're open to compromise.

You love Christmas. You enjoy almost every aspect and tradition of the holidays.

You give a big during the holidays but nowhere near as much as you'd like to.

What Does Your Christmas Say About You?

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

How much could you change within... a few months/years?

2008-12-17T18:36:00.003+07:00

So I really *should* be doing my philosophy paper or at the very least start studying for my final test tomorrow... but I'm sooo lazy to do it at the moment! Gosh! Instead... I decided to re-take some online quizzes I took before... and to my amazement... I have changed... in some ways! And stayed the same in others.

Here goes the ones that changed:

Your Love Life is Like Annie Hall

"A relationship, I think, is like a shark. You know? It has to constantly move forward or it dies."

You believe that love (if you even believe in love!) is a very complicated thing.

Maybe love is pain. Or maybe it's all a big therapy session. You're still figuring it out.

Your love style: Brainy and a bit neurotic

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Realistic and reflective

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

Your Mood is a 7

You're feeling pretty good, but not perfect. Your mood is on the high side of average.

How Does Your Mood Rate?

You Are 50% Burned Out

You're fairly burned out, and it shows.

You probably have been feeling a little rundown and irritable lately.

If you can, drop a few of your minor responsibilities and focus on what's really important.

You have too much on your plate, and it's catching up with you.

Are You Burned Out?

You Are 64% Tortured Genius

You are smart. Brilliant in fact. And while it's a blessing, it's also a curse.

Your head is filled with everything - grand ideas, insufferable worries, and a good deal of angst.

Are You a Tortured Genius?

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a creative hotbed of artistic talent.

You're always making pictures in your mind, especially when you're bored.

You are easily inspired to think colorful, interesting thoughts.

And although it may be hard to express these thoughts, it won't always be.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Heart Takes Love Seriously

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are Valentine's Day

You are a true romantic who places the ultimate importance on love.

You are warm hearted, and you find it easy to care for people.

Love is what drives you - and you have a love to give.

You enjoy making someone's day. You're full of surprises.

What makes you celebrate: Being with the person you love on a special day

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The sentimental one

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: See it as romantic and special

What Holiday Are You?

You Have Your PhD in Men

You understand men almost better than anyone.

You accept that guys are very different, and you read signals well.

Work what you know about men, and your relationships will be blissful.

How Well Do You Understand Men?

You Are a Soft Kisser

Your kissing style is understated, but effective

You give soft, sweet, and soulful kisses.

And the key is, you only give kisses to someone incredibly special

Because you don't just go around kissing anyone

What's Your Kissing Style?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.

That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!

The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.

Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.

You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.

Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.

As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Are a Visual Learner

You tend to remember what you see, and you have a good eye for aesthetics.

You excel at art, design, and computer programming.

You would be an excellent film director - or the next Bill Gates!

What's Your Learning Style?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 66% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

And a new one... ;)

He's A Keeper!

Your guy is a rare find: sweet, kind, and loyal.

And as long as he doesn't have three nipples,

You should seriously consider keeping him a long time

Sometimes a girl can't see a good thing when she's got one

So let me tell you: your guy is a gold medal boyfriend

Just make sure you treat him right in return!

Is He a Keeper?

mind-heart-body-soul

2008-12-03T22:22:00.002+07:00

So I was at Christian History class earlier today, and for some reason I started thinking how the mind sometimes can't explain things... and then I started doodling a pic which I unfortunately can't draw at the moment, and started to write a little 'philosophy' of mine... so here goes...

The mind controls the body, the heart affects them both.
The mind understands the body it controls... it could reason with the heart, for they are partners.
But the soul, it encompasses the rest, in wholeness.
And so it cannot be explained by the mind, whose capacity is limited.
It could hardly be understood by the heart, that simply feels so strongly.
And the body, well, it is nothing without the soul, so it just follows...

Does that make any sense to you? Hmm?

Cynic?

2008-11-15T09:48:00.003+07:00

I like that word. And yeah. It's so... you... LOL. You obviously know that.

And funny how we're so different and yet so similar... and... and... and... gosh I miss you! Miss you like crazy... Want to hear your voice, see your smile, and do the things we usually do ;)

So anyway, Mr. Reporter, why so many questions? Not that I mind, of course. You can ask me anything and I'll probably answer it like it's the only thing I could/should do in my life. Haha.

Coco... cause that's what my grandpa used to call me. It was his preferred spelling of the name people call me at home. Although, yeaah... I guess it does make me kinda loco. Or maybe not. Maybe it's just you. Or maybe I just am. Hahaha.

Max... your good ol' pal, of course...

Josh... the longest crush I've ever had. But now... nothing. The feeling's gone the moment I met you (how cliché, but still: true)... "incident"? Oh... nothing much, just ruined my chances with him, which is a good thing cause I got you :P

Ben... someone at campus, quite obviously. Can't exactly tell you the name right here, right now, can I? Patience, dear... I'll let you know if ya really want to know :)

Anymore questions in store?

Ah, one more thing... YOUR cosmic turned into some kinda helter skelter? So did mine... obviously, it's OUR cosmic :)

so you did find... THIS blog!!

2008-11-12T17:34:00.002+07:00

Ha. Hahaha. And here I thought you found this one... coz this is the one that usually shows up in google. But I just realized that this one shows up too, albeit at the very end of the page. And of all my entries, you had to remember the one generic sentence of 'Gosh, I love Christmas'?? Hahaha *laughs a mixture of embarrassment and total happiness*

Well, allow me to spill a little secret, love... my last entry?? Ray? Well, that's my nickname for you :) And why Ray? Cause you've always been my sunshine. Get it? Sunshine... Sun rays... Ray :)

Hahah. I totally feel a new spirit of blogging right now! Just for the sole purpose of letting you read my thoughts and feelings! LOL.

I just have to get this out of my system!

2008-09-29T17:54:00.002+07:00

Today was a seriously 'hot' day... I think I was gleaming the whole day and it ought to be obvious to anyone. LOL. Well, who wouldn't be if they have three (yeah, THREE!) guys around to flirt with?? :P

First of all of course, my day started with a good morning greeting from "Max", and our SMS chat (which reached topics like him asking if I would like him to drive me home) continued until I reached campus, where I ran into "Ray" who was oh-so-funny! I mean, unlike Max, I'm not quite certain if Ray is actually flirting with me or just being silly, but I am seriously charmed by his silliness. Like his walking around the table I was sitting at for a few times before sitting in front of me, and those extra seconds he took before 'pretending' to realize I was there, and his unexpected sharing of stories? And of course that long chat we had with the 'contact number' joke ending. Now that I think of it, I really hope I didn't overdo it. LOL. Other than that, it was really, really nice to have spent that time with him.

And of course the icing... that smile that "Ben" flashed when he saw me? Perfect ending that would last at least until tomorrow morning (when I'm guaranteed to see Ray) :)

Tumblelog

2008-09-11T15:47:00.002+07:00

A little late, I suppose, but I just found out about this little thing called Tumblelog yesterday. Of course I couldn't help myself and HAD to own one!!

After a glance at the links provided, I decided to open one on Tumblr, which was apparently a good choice as it is the first of its kind and comes with high recommendations (try a google search if you need proof). Although I have to admit the other 3 links provided by Wikipedia are interesting too... hmm...

Anyway, I like Tumblr so far, and now that I have the Thought Cloud theme, I love my tumblr page even more! Although I have to admit the thought of having other people with the exact same layout out there scares me. Must think of some ways of personalization soon... but not now cause I really really should start doing my assignment due tomorrow. LOL.

Oh, and of course, I present you... Cocology@tumblr.com :)

So apparently underneath we are all just the same...

2008-09-10T17:31:00.002+07:00

Found this interesting list called The 30 Most Satisfying Simple Pleasures Life Has To Offer at Marc And Angel, which is a site I stumbled upon a few weeks back. Reading it, I'm surprised that I can relate to approximately 90% of it, and I'm pretty sure you would too... so at the end of the day, does that make us all the same? Interesting thought, huh?

The Chronicles of my love life... Continued

2008-08-12T19:21:00.001+07:00

Oh Edz, that was just two of 'em! LOL. Here goes the story of the third person I'm eyeing... Hmm, let's call him Dexter since he loves that show and identifies himself with the main character (except for the serial killer part, he said).
I've been logging on and off ebuddy in the hopes of finding him online, but no such luck for the moment. I guess I can't have two great consecutive days with him. LOL.
Anyways, I'm at our music school's new branch at the moment, wasting time as I wait for our dinner to start, hoping it would end up soon (rather unlikely) coz I have some work to do when we reach home. Worst of all, I need to wake up at 5.30 tomorrow coz it's orientation day at my new campus!! Why am I not as excited as I should be??

The Chronicles of My Love Life

2008-08-08T19:10:00.001+07:00

Leave it all up to me to feel miserable about a guy I only knew for roughly 5 non consecutive days who I haven't met in 10 years just because he apparently has had contact with my married cousin and of course none with me.
Seriously, I'd be lucky if he even remembers me at all!
In my defence I would say you should remember that this guy was the first male being I ever cried about. And there aren't that many either.
What would make you think I've completely lost it is that that was not even 24 hours after I met him. Ha.
And of course up until last month I was all over this Josh.
Yeah. I'm totally out of my mind.

Thursday Thirteen - 21st Edition

2008-08-07T19:39:00.002+07:00

Thanks to meeting Pink Panther after 10 years... I had this exquisitely vivid dream of his brother, whom I used to have a HUGE crush on. So anyways, here are my...
13 things I remember bout the Pink Panther's brother :)
1. The first time I saw him, it was late in the afternoon and my aunty brought me and my mom to their hotel to say hi (I think we just arrived or something like that).

2. That night, I spent most of the time staring at him! LOL. Okay, not really, but my mom instantly found out I liked him a lot, so it was probably obvious.

3. I recall he told me he's really amazed by the house lizards. He liked looking at them from behind glass cause you can see all the organs (umm, yeah, I was like... WHATEVER, dude!)

4. He's a vegetarian.

5. His birthday is October 10th, 1982.

6. The next morning, I overheard my grandma talking bout him and my cousin, how they could make a good match or something like that, and I started CRYING. Seriously. Stupid, I know, but I was totally heartbroken.

7. Nevertheless, we spent the day at a waterpark which was a lot of fun.

8. This is where I found out that he had given his brother's middle name, which I can't recall (and didn't dare to ask) but it was taken from a character in the Pink Panther cartoon coz it was his favorite cartoon.

9. He hates his second middle name too, cause it's a girl's name :)

10. Few years later, in 1998, we went to visit them at their house in Germany and even spent the night there.

11. This is when I found out that he's supersmart at school and could speak 4 languages (German, English, French, and LATIN). Also, I recall he spent a lot of time using the computer, that's why I can't believe he's almost non existant in the internet nowadays.

12. This is also when one of my regretted moments in life happened... the story goes... he just moved into a new room at the house, and he took me to his room to show off. It was a seriously beautiful room! It was the kind of room I would've loved to have, and he had this window right above his bed and you could see the stars... anyways, while we're there, he put on a CD of his music (he does a lot of Hip Hop stuff). And there I was, at awe because of him, his room and his music, and with rather limited German vocabulary... and he asked me "What do you think?" -- I was under the impression that he was asking about the room, so I said "the room's beautiful". He gave me an odd look and said "That's a unique choice of word. I meant the music." Whoopss... wanted to explain myself but it was too late. He turned off the music and we left his room :(

13. The next day (we spent the night there!) we went for lunch together and for some reason he was very angry with the waiter at the restaurant. As a result, I have a pic of him looking very crossed. Sad thing about it of course, we also separated without much interaction since he was so angry. LOL.

Thursday Thirteen - 20th Edition

2008-07-31T13:37:00.002+07:00

I used to write. But I haven't done so for a long time. And never did in English cause I keep confusing my tenses. LOL. Anyways, lately I seem to get random sentences in my head a lot, probably because I am reading more at the moment. I feel they might become an interesting story, but I am really too lazy to do it. So I thought I'd share some of those sentences with you. Who knows, perhaps by doing so, I have cured a writer's block ;)

13 random sentences from my head that *could* develop into a story

'Why is it so hot in here?' she thought. She checked the air conditioner. It was working fine.
She reached for the glass of wine he handed her. She doesn't drink. Never tasted a single sip of wine before. She had done a meticulous research on wines just to impress him as they talked online. He thinks she's as much an expert as he is.
The elevator was broken. Again. He sighed as he started to climb the stairs. He doesn't like this at all.
I couldn't keep myself from smiling as I clicked on the link to open his message. I didn't think he would reply.
The wind was blowing hair into my face. The sun was shining but it wasn't hot. I could hear the distant sound of birds chirping happily. 'It's one of those days,' I quickly concluded.
"Are you in love with me or something?" he suddenly asked.
The phone rang. An unknown number. He picked it up reluctantly. "Hello?" he said.
She took another sip of her hot chocolate drink. Some sappy old love song was playing in the background and she tried her best not to relate it to her own situation. She glanced at her watch. 'He's not coming' she thought.
I don't know why you are reading this book. Why do you want to know about me? I'm just an ordinary person.
Yesterday I finally decided to say goodbye to my lifelong obsession.
He's drunk. He knows it. But he couldn't resist another glass of beer.
"Get back to work!" a loud voice came out of nowhere.
"How should I decide?"
"Oh come on... just flip a coin!"
"I don't know how."

People

2008-07-29T16:21:00.002+07:00

I know I did a post like this before, but this time I'm following Nana's advice because I seriously want to find this people (no luck so far with Google and/or Facebook), hoping that they would be googling their own name and reach this site. Although I wonder why one would do that... lol...

So anyways, if you're one of these people and/or know them... I'd like to get in touch with you!

1. Felicia Chandra - last known location: Singapore
2. Andrea Gibas - last known location: Germany
3. Erik Johannes M. Hoedl - last known location: Wuppertal (Germany), assumed current location: Vienna (Austria)
4. Ann Marie Parker - last known location: Washington (not DC, USA)

Yeah, those are all I can think of right now...

Thursday Thirteen - 19th edition, I think...

2008-07-24T10:16:00.004+07:00

First thing first... here's a picture of ZOE ISABELLA YASEMIN C., my newborn niece...

Isn't she just the cutessstttt baby on earth?? Look at her pouty lips... and her hair! My goodness, can you believe this pic was taken only 24 hours after her birth?? She was born on the 19th, BTW.

Alas now to celebrate...

13 of my favorite NAMES (aka something I would name my baby one day)

Zoe - but unfortunately my cousin beat me to it, obviously. I don't know why I like this name... I just do! Coming from Greek origin, this name means quite simply LIFE. So anyway, since it's taken, I might have to resort to Zoya - which is the Russian form of Zoe. I don't like it as much though, because it might sound like soy sauce, especially in German... but maybe if I get a Russian man... ;)
Alana - an old favorite, before the Zoe craze. I even used it as a pseudonym for myself.
Najma - this is probably the least popular name in this list, also a very favorite one of mine ever since I first read it. It comes from Arabic origin, and means Star, or also Precious.
Olenka - Another Russian name, meaning HOLY. I used this name together with the previous for one of my story characters back when I was still writing. The full name of the character was Amara Najma Olenka, which pretty much means Eternally Beautiful Holy Star. Too much 'weight' for a real baby name, huh?
Anya - Again, a Russian form... this time for Anna. What is it with me and Russian names?? Anyways, I find the name very pretty.
Skye - Pretty... and unique! Plus I really love the sky... LOL
Leia - While it is popularized by Star Wars and people think it comes from the name Leah, I would like it very much to name a baby Cathleia and have her called Leia. Okay, now let's get on with some boy names, huh? Wouldn't want my baby boy to think he was unwanted or anything... although honestly (quite obviously) I really don't have that many favorite boys name :P
Alexis - The only boy name that comes almost immediately to mind...
Darrell - I used to use this name a lot too for my stories, along with Alexis, forming Darrell Louis Alexis, which is another 'hefty' name for a little boy (I'll let you go and figure out what it means yourself for a change).
Tristan - Although the name is literally a sad name, I still like the sound of it, and I imagine someone with this name as being really handsome and well-built.
Akira - Japanese name meaning "Bright". Nice, huh?
Cyrus - Just seems like a nice name... and to think of all the kings who were named Cyrus. Well...
Mikael - A form of the name Michael which is my favorite. I once used it in a story too, where there were three brothers named Ariel, Gabriel and Mikael. So maybe if I 'plan' to have three boys... ;)

What's your favorite name??

Daily 15 - Things That Make Me Happy

2008-07-21T20:01:00.002+07:00

Although I found out about the Daily 15 quite a while ago and even subscribed to the mailing list, I didn't actually do the things suggested because so far they've been impossible for me to do (mainly because I was to chicken to do it, I admit). But today's was a nice one. At first I thought of doing it in my journal (I need to fill up the pages fast cause I really feel like digging into a new book soon) but then I thought I'd share it here just to show you how easily amused I really am. LOL. I will probably re-write it in the journal afterwards though. So here goes...
THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY (in no particular order):
1. An idea that is do-able and fun, like writing down this list.
2. Teddy Bears!
3. Opportunity to spend time with Josh (uh, yeah...)
4. Being in a bookstore.
5. Buying books.
6. Stumbling on something nice on Stumble Upon.
7. Getting an unexpected SMS from a friend.
8. My Birthday.
9. Making other people happy.
10. Getting that amazed look from my Sunday School students when I'm telling them a story. Even better if I was using props like yesterday.
11. Having someone tell me I'm pretty/cute/beautiful.
12. Or getting any kind of compliment at all, for the matter.
13. Cute guys flirting with me (shallow, I know)
14. Magazines.
15. Chocolates. Especially Mint ones.
16. Caramel or Mocha Frappucino from Starbucks.
17. Rain (as in the droplets of water from the sky NOT the singer, and yeah, I'm weird like that)
18. People understanding my sarcasm/witty jokes.
19. Presents!!
20. Mail (yeah, even if they're just receipts or even bills... but better yet if it's a package of some kind)
21. (cute) Kids :)
22. Grocery stores that stock imported items (You really don't want to get me going on all the stuff)
23. Ice Cream.
24. A Nice Meal.
25. Seeing the printed out version of the layouts/designs I've made.
26. Taking pictures.
27. Seeing the pictures developed.
28. Being underwater (like when I'm swimming, or in a bath, or even in the shower)
29. SNOW! (unfortunately I don't get a lot of that)
30. Realizing this list could probably go up to 100... :D

The Josh Soundtrack album art... lol

2008-07-20T21:49:00.002+07:00

Well, somebody's definitely got too much time in their hands...

Thanks, tho', Edz, really sweet of you ;)

My Personality

2008-07-18T16:19:00.002+07:00

Found this over at Nana's and thought I'd give it a try... it's surprisingly accurate :P

The Josh Soundtrack - continued...

2008-07-18T13:16:00.002+07:00

I just realized there are more songs that actually remind me of Josh... so yeah, here goes:

Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore
All I want to do is find a way back into love...
Can't Help Loving That Man - from Show Boat
Now, tell me he's lazy, tell me he's slow, tell me I'm crazy, maybe I know, but I can't help lovin' that man of mine!

Bonus track... LOL ;)

Thursday Thirteen - 18th Edition

2008-07-18T12:31:00.003+07:00

I know this is late, and honestly Josh (it's just JOSH, edz, not Joshua :P) hasn't been preoccupying my thoughts lately, but I'm gonna do this anyway...

13 Songs That I Call The JOSH Soundtrack
(aka songs that remind me of Josh, in a bittersweet way, in the order my iTunes play them)

Let It Go - Brooke White
I don’t want to let it go, even though it’s wrong, I know...
Shout To The Lord - Darlene Zschech
(Something about singing it together with him...)
JanjiMu Sperti Fajar - Franky Sihombing
(The only Indonesian song in this list. Also something about singing it with him, AND the look in his eyes at some point of the lyrics, okay, it's a long story... anyways, even tho' it makes me feel guilty to take such lovely worship lyric and make it very secular, still...)
Stuck - Stacie Orrico
I hate you but I love you, I can’t stop thinking of you!
When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me...
The Christmas Song - Nat King Cole
(It's a really long story... more like history :P)
Are You Happy Now? - Michelle Branch
Could you look me in the eye and tell me that you’re happy now?
So Close - Jon McLaughlin
We’re so close to reaching that famous happy end, and almost believing this was not pretend. Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are so close and still so far
Hopelessly Devoted To You - Olivia Newton John
My head is saying "fool, forget him", my heart is saying "don't let go"
I'm With You - Avril Lavigne
(DON'T ASK!!)
I Don't Want To Miss A Thing - David Cook's version :)
I could stay lost in this moment forever, when every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure...
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Dangerous Love - Kinzli
I'm in love with a casanova, sweet talking pretty boy, he's got tricks up his sleeve to weaken my knees, I'm confused by this dangerous love

Are You Interested?

2008-07-10T10:44:00.002+07:00

Been pretty much a fan of Are You Interested (a facebook app, in case you don't know) these last few days... Out of boredom, perhaps. What's a better way to get rid of boredom than to look at thousands of pictures and decide which one are interesting (read: good looking, handsome, HOT!) and which one are not?? And then there's the bonus of having them decide on you and when they agree... voila, conversation! Who knows where that could lead? Hahahah. Yeah, it's fun.

And now just because I feel like it... here are some points I decide on when browsing the pics at Are You Interested:

1. I always SKIP guys who post group pictures. Because, obviously there is no telling which one you're deciding on. And who knows he might be the least interesting one in the group.

2. I also usually SKIP guys who post half-naked pics of themselves (ya know, no shirt on??) and the butt-naked ones too, of course (that's really too much information). The reason? I don't know, I guess I label them too much of a playboy when they do that. The only exception to this rule I made so far was for this one guy who has such pretty eyes. And yet I am already regretting it, for reasons that are too complex to elaborate.

3. Next on, I SKIP guys who post pics of them together with a girl/a lot of girls. I just find it unattractive.

4. Mostly, I also SKIP guys who are from Indonesia. This is because I don't want to make it easy for them to find me or something. I know, weird reasoning. But anyway. I've only made two exceptions so far.

5. I also SKIP guys who are my friends in real life. It's just too weird. LOL.

6. I always click YES (anonymously)... I don't know why, since the app makes it pretty obvious anyway (the people who click you anonymously almost always appears as the first/few first when you browse). Except for one exception so far. Which I did not regret, so far.

7. I wanted to elaborate further on what kind of guys I click YES on, but then that would be a whole new topic in itself, right? Hahaha. So yeah. That's bout it.

Happy Independence Day, my American Friends :)

2008-07-04T12:27:00.002+07:00

That said, since I'm in the mood for questions, I'm just going to answer last week's Friday Feast :D

Appetizer
What is the weather like today where you live?
It's hot but rather dry today instead the usual humidity, the sun was shining but it's cloudy at the moment.

Soup
On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how career-minded are you?
Err... 1?? Really, I don't think I think bout my career at all. My reason? We're all gonna die anyway, and it won't be worth it :)

Salad
What type of window coverings do you have in your home? Blinds, curtains, shutters, etc.?
We have curtains, and blinds... the blinds are only used very occasionally.

Main Course
Name something that instantly cheers you up.
I'm easily amused, so a lot of things do that... but I'll stick with the two things that popped in my head first: JOSH, and Teddy Bears :)

Dessert
How many times do you hit the snooze button on a typical morning?
I don't have an alarm, but by my routine I think it would be about 2 times :P

To move or not to move...

2008-07-01T15:55:00.002+07:00

Ah, it's been a long while, hasn't it? Been busy. Very, very busy. Not that it's an excuse. I've been lazy too, I guess.

Anyways today I thought of my blog. AND then of my domain. Then I thought about moving the blog to the domain. So I installed Wordpress (using Fantastico, of course!). And now... I'm thinking maybe I shouldn't move it after all. Keeping it at blogspot seems easier, plus it saves my webspace for other things. Not that I would have so many things there. Maybe it would just become wasted space if I don't move the blog there. But then...

Oh. Yes, I'm confused.

We Are None Of Us Alone

2008-06-02T12:06:00.002+07:00

Last night as I flicked trough TV channels out of boredom I landed on an episode of LIFE. I loved it!! Must remember to tune in to the series' next episode, or even better yet get the series DVD :D

Anyways, last night's episode was Episode #8 - Farthingale, and at the end of the episode was this quote which was very touching yet I didn't have time to write it down. So I googled it, and found this site, like many others did, if you read the comments :P

Well, I thought I'd post it up again here...

We are none of us alone
even as we exhale it is inhaled by others
the light that shines upon me shines upon my neighbor as well
in this way everything is connected
everything is connected to everything else
In this way I am connected to my friend even as I am connected to my enemy
In this way there is no difference between me and my friend
In this way there is no difference between me and my enemy
We are none of us alone

Thursday Thirteen - 17th Edition

2008-05-29T10:27:00.002+07:00

It's been a while, huh? Ah, how busy my life has been... and just plain lazy to blog! Actually I'm pretty sure I ought to be doing something more important at the moment, but alas... here I am with a TT post... and I know it's late but I really need to get this out of my head so here are:

13 thoughts about American Idol season 7... plus 13 American Idol icons up for grabs!

Let's start with saying: I am SO HAPPY that David Cook won!!
Before everyone starts bashing me by saying that Archuleta's a better singer and so on... let me also say, I would have been fine with little Archie winning, cause I do like his soft, well-rounded, beautiful voice. Perhaps even more that DC's rocker voice.
In fact, I would've rooted for Archie if it weren't for the Andrew Lloyd Weber night, where Cook's version of Music of the Night (my favorite song from Phantom) was very touching while Arch's dance mix Think of Me (my 2nd favorite song from Phantom) was... well, not so nice.
Also, I do think that Cook's more handsome than Archuleta, but I'm guessing that's because he's more of my type... I really don't fall for baby-faced guys, sorry!!
Another reason why I really like good ol' Cookie is because of his attitude... I don't know how to describe it. I just find the things he does to be funny in a sweet kind of way, if you know what I mean... like when he sat down next to Archie that one time Ryan made Arch decide which group to go?
And even more than that, I admire him for not launching into his coronation song right away but taking time to acknowledge Archuleta, cry, hug his mom... AND he even asked all the contestants to sing with him. SWEET!
Okay, this is obviously turning into a 'Why I like David Cook' post so on another topic... the one moment I was truly disappointed during the season was when Chikezie got into top 12 instead of Danny Noriega! And not because I like Danny, but rather because I like him better than I like Chikezie! Plus, he (Danny) was more fun to watch and talk/comment about. Oh, and let's not forget how well he reacts to Simon!!
My favorite Simon Cowell quote of the season was: "That was like a Chihuahua trying to be a tiger..." said to David A. when he performed that song by Chris Brown. LOL.
My favorite Simon Cowell moment of the season was when they showed what he does with his hand... the beside the head thing? But the BEST part? When Danny decide to do the 'Whatever' in the same fashion... Very funny!!
What else?? Oh, right... my favorite female contestant was always Kristy Lee Cook. Maybe it's something about the last name Cook? Hahah.
Whoa, I can't believe I'm out of topics at number 10... Think, think, think... Hmm, I personally would've liked it better if the coronation song was 'Dream Big' instead of 'The Time of My Life'. Loooovvveeee the lyrics to that song!
Let's get back to Cook then... the best site I found so far on him is david-cook.org! Go and visit. I especially love their heading banner... and there are so many beautiful signatures featuring DC there thanks to the wonderful talented people who hand around.
Last but not least... if you're a David Cook fan, here's a wallpaper I made which I thought I'd share since I ran out of words... click for the 1024x768 size!

Finally got some blogworthy pics of Fluff and Flippy!

2008-05-13T12:51:00.001+07:00

Birth of a Domain

2008-05-07T20:21:00.002+07:00

I finally decided to register a domain! Won't reveal it yet, but I thought I might post some props to the hosting company RumahWeb for their speed! I didn't even have to confirm my payment! Hohoho...

Slightly Irritated

2008-04-29T11:58:00.002+07:00

Write exactly what's on your mind and don't change it.

1. I am listening to = hammering sound from upstairs

2. Maybe I should = eat

3. I love = myself

4. My best friend = is my mom

5. I don't understand = why I'm here at the moment

6. I lost my respect for = someone

7. I last ate = meatballs

8. The meaning of my display name is = which display name??

9. Someday = I'll fly away...

10. I will always be = ME!

11. My myspace is = very much neglected

12. I get annoyed when = people throw a list of things to do at me. Like I haven't got enough things to do!!

13. Parties = are loud! Ugh.

14. Kisses = are sweet...

15. Today I = am slightly irritated (at the moment)

16. I wish = I could skip work for like a week or something...

Random questions.

1. Is your hair wet?: nope

2. Is your cell phone right by you?: yeah, all 5 of 'em!

3. Do you miss someone?: hmm... I guess...

4. Are you wearing chap stick?: nope... kinda need it tho'

5. Are you tired?: yeah

6. Are you wearing pajamas?: unfortunately I can't do that at work

7. Are you mad?: not really

8. Are you upset?: yeaah... sort of...

Have You.

1. Recently done anything you regret?: hmm, yeah

3. Ever stuck gum under a desk?: no, that's the most disgusting thing ever!

4. Ever kicked someone?: oh yeaah...

5. Ever tripped over your own feet?: yes

Today

1. Have you cursed?: under my breath...

2. Have you gotten mad at someone?: no

Random

1: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?: actually, no

2: Do you have any siblings?: sort of :P

3: Do you want children?: sure

4: Do you smile often?: yes

5: Do you wish on stars?: naah

6: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: no

7: Do you like your handwriting?: yes

8: Are your toenails painted?: no

9: Are you a friendly person?: depends on my mood!

10: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?: mine, of course

12: What were you doing at 10 pm last night?: I think I was watching TV

13: I can't wait until: the 18th of May!

Things that make you happy... (it's so true!)

2008-04-23T13:34:00.001+07:00

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket.
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake (vanilla or strawberry).
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach.
16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Looking into their eyes and knowing they Love you
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke with FRIENDS
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy or kitten.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
40. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

Friday's Feast #183

2008-03-14T11:58:00.005+07:00

Appetizer
On a scale of 1-10 (with 10 as highest), how much do you like your own handwriting?
I'd say 8... I love my handwriting, but sometimes I wish it could be prettier on occasions (by that I mean I would love to be able to create some 'typography' to use when writing cards, scrapbooks or journaling that is nicer than my usual writing)

Soup
Do you prefer baths or showers?
Showers, actually. I feel cleaner and it saves water and time too. Anyways we don't have a bathtub at home, but I never miss a chance for a nice warm bubble bath, usually when we're staying at a hotel ;)

Salad
What was the last bad movie you watched?
Honestly, I don't watch bad movies :P
I usually check reviews before I go to the cinema, and at home I just change the channel. Once though, I walked out of a cinema movie because it was a split decision to watch and turned out to be bad. Can't remember the title, however.

Main Course
Name something you are addicted to and describe how it affects your life.

Right now, I seriously think I'm addicted to Josh. LOL. How it affects my life? Well, in a positive way it motivates me to do more for Sunday School because of the thought 'he might be there', and it also gives me a lot to write in the blog and in my journal. Hahah. On the negative side, it is really frustrating in many ways.

Dessert
Which instrument is your favorite to listen to?
I'd say the guitar... or perhaps the harp but I don't get to listen to that often.

Impossible!

2008-03-14T11:30:00.000+07:00

Impossible-Quiz.com - Hardest Quiz Ever

In response to...

2008-03-10T11:29:00.002+07:00

Joy Renee, the truth is I envisioned doing the same thing just like you described. I'm pretty sure that would leave him dumbfounded. LOL. If only I don't freeze in a stupid grin whenever I meet him...

Anni, your comment was the funniest! Hahahah... I guess you're right!

Arlene, he probably wouldn't be seeing my blog soon cause I hid it pretty well from my real life. LOL. And a good thing too, in a way, cause if he reads this and reacts in some negative way, I might not be able to face him ever again!

Natalie, Josh isn't his real name, but anyway :)

Celtic Librarian, thanks for the good luck wishes!

Sarah, oh yeah, blogging is GREAT!

Holly, thank you so much :)

Maggie, thank you too!

Ellen B, how I wish I have the courage to do THAT! But oh, just yesterday when I accidentally ran into him I just froze. With a stupid grin on my face. And then some lousy comment... :(

Laura and Claudia, I'm pretty sure he's not worth ALL of my obsession. LOL.

Beeker, Oh, how I wish I could...

Zen Momma, I think he's the one... but maybe I'm wrong :P

Chuck, I'm still not getting over him...

Darla, yeah, it did!

Robin, thanks!

Maggie, like I told you on your blog... I have never blatantly told him, but I'm so obvious he probably knows :P

Bad Puppy Dog, I wish I could...

To all, thanks for your words of encouragement. A little Josh update is... I will be spending time with him for the easter celebration at our Sunday School cause they assigned us the same post. Wish me luck and pray that I won't act stupid, if you'd please... who knows what might happen then. It's two weeks from now. Oh. Oh. I'm nervous even now! LOL.

TMTH (Too Much To Handle!)

2008-03-08T14:34:00.003+07:00

It's been an amazingly irritating morning! On a Saturday... good gracious! And yesterday was a national holiday. My goodness, I oughta be sleeping today, enjoying peace and quiet like never before, but NOOOO, early morning I had to finish some report, found out I had made a mistake, but more on that later, and then report it to my boss to get scolded for nothing which led me to crying out loud... followed my me having to go to work, called the person to whom I made the earlier mistake only to get scolded agaaaiiinnn, and he refused to pay so I will have to pay for it (that's 3/4 of my pay... AAARRRGGHH) AND as if that is not enough, comes this irritating lady who just has to bug me further on the report as well as ask me to copy songs to her iPod. Oh God, I cannot handle thissssss....

Anyways... Out of topic... last night I was so angry that Danny Noriega was eliminated from American Idol! I mean, I don't like him that much, in fact I would spend my time watching him and giving negative comments but he's actually pretty fun to have around and I definitely would choose him over Chikezie.

And all that, as Danny would put it, is just TMTH.

Thank you so much for all the nice people who visited my TT though, and your encouragement on Josh... hahahah... I must rush and do some work again now but I'll get back to re-reading your comments. I love the facet that there are people who care out there... :)

Thursday Thirteen - 16th Edition

2008-03-06T14:54:00.002+07:00

Since I'm seriously obsessed with this guy, might as well write it down... some say it might help... who knows I might get over him by doing this... LOL :D

13 things I think of when I think of Josh

1. John the Baptist
When I first met him, he was playing John the Baptist at our church's cantata. I don't think anyone else remembers that... hmmm...

2. Sunday School
Because it's the place I got to know him better, and the reason I have so many (well, not that many) memories of him.

3. M&M's
There was this one moment when we were 'close' and he gave me a bag of M&M's, because it's sweet, like you... he said. Lame, I know... but still sweet.

4. Green Suzuki Esteem
This was his car back then (read: when the above scene happened).

5. Sunset
The story goes, one day Josh and I were talking about an event we were to host together, and then I waited for my mom who was doing something at church, and he accompanied me, being sweet, we talked... all the way til it was dark. The sunset was awesome.

6. Banana
On a milestone day in my Josh story, we were close, tired, hungry... and he fed me bananas *err, it was rather romantic, actually. It's just not sounding right at the moment... hahah*

7. Do you love me? and Do you want to kiss me?
The two questions he threw at me that one night when everyone else were in their room sleeping (it was a Sunday School camp) and we were talking nonsense in the middle of the night... which shocked me and made me answer NO (well, in between sheepish laughs and looks that say yes), also known as the day I probably ruined my chances forever and ever... because although there was a sweet happening the next morning, his close-to-every-other-girl-too behavior made me end the day in crying home (okay, I was probably tired) and we sort of stopped speaking after that... for approx. 2 years!

8. The Christmas Song
Yes, there is a reason why I like this song so bad, and the reason in Josh. This song was playing on the Christmas day we sort of 'made up'. He was singing and then he wished me a Merry Christmas and smiled his old smile I knew so well.

9. Girls
Unfortunately, Josh is probably the luckiest playboy on earth. He could go with the title Casanova. Even my 6th grade student knows that he spreads his charm on a lot of girls. And yet, why does my heart refuse to agree that I'm just one of his 'victims'? I wish I knew... I wish I knew.

10. Polo Ralph Lauren
I think this is like his favorite brand. Seriously. This guy wears Polo shirts every time! And he has a Polo backpack and probably a whole lot of other Polo stuff too. For all I know his perfume might be Polo. LOL.

11. Shout to the Lord
as in the song by Hillsong, for it was the song we sang together last Sunday, along with an Indonesian song. It was a sweet experience all over again, practicing, singing... so much that I almost feel like it was a sin to be praising God while thinking about how happy I am to be singing together with him :(

12. Golden Honda Accord
his current car, which drove me home from the Sunday School teacher's retreat... where I spent about 1.5 hours together with him and yet nothing special happened except me ruining my chances even greater for all I know *sobs*.

13. The Company he works for...
I think writing the company's name would be a little too dangerous. Let's just say I can't walk pass the breakfast food aisle at a supermarket without thinking of him :P
AND if his company really sends him off to the Philippines... well, I've decided that will be my final goodbye to him. At least that's what I decide at the moment. LOL. Seriously I have to get over him.

I'm bored (again)!

2008-02-27T16:28:00.002+07:00

Your Love Life is Like The Princess Bride

"Since the invention of the kiss, there have only been five kisses that were rated the most passionate, the most pure. This one left them all behind."

For you, love is like a fairy tale - albeit a fairly twisted one.

You believe romance is all about loyalty, fate, and a good big of goofy fun.

Your love style: Idealistic yet quirky

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Perfectly romantic

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

Your Mood is a 5

You're feeling okay. Not great, not bad. Your mood is pretty average right now.

How Does Your Mood Rate?

You Are 63% Burned Out

You are very burned out.

You need a huge break from your responsibilities, starting as soon as possible.

And you need this time to reevaluate what you really want out of your life.

Because you're working hard and going no where... and that would burn anyone out!

Are You Burned Out?

Who Should Paint You: Salvador Dali

You're a complex, intense creature who displays many layers.

There's no way a traditional portrait could ever capture you!

What Artist Should Paint Your Portrait?

You Are a Tiny Tease

You like to flirt and show off your body, but what confident woman doesn't.

You enjoy male attention, and you're usually pretty good at not leading men on.

However, there are times when you get carried away with your sexy behavior.

It's okay to use your amazing flirting powers for good - but never for evil!

Do Men Think You're You A Tease?

You Are 55% Tortured Genius

You are very smart and a little bit tortured. Like a tortured genius in training.

You're brilliant enough to see how screwed up the world is. Just don't let it screw you up!

Are You a Tortured Genius?

You've Got a Bit of a Crush

Maybe your guy friend is a crush of convenience - easy enough to happen

Did you just break up with someone? Or are you more lonely than usual?

If no to both, then this small crush could be the real deal.

Find out if he feels the same - because he just might!

Are You Crushing on Him (And Don't Even Know It)?

the truth is...

2008-02-27T15:59:00.003+07:00

that if anyone who knows me in real life, or knows Josh in real life EVER finds this page, I'm doomed. Or maybe not. Perhaps it would be a good thing to have someone else tell Josh that I'm crazy in love with him. Perhaps not. That would boost his ego. LOL.

But maybe, just maybe, he is feeling the same way about me and we're just stuck at the fact that I told him I didn't like him a few years back (which was an obvious lie, if he's smart enough to figure it out).

Personally I think he knows that I have always been fond of him. And I think he even enjoys 'torturing' me about it. But I might be wrong. I also think that he likes me too... it's pretty obvious from his looks. But come on, if so, what could possibly stand between us? It cannot be that 'incident'. That is just stupid. Actually, yeah, I know I'm stupid. It's all my fault. If only, if only... but no regrets, right?

People, these are the usual thoughts that go by my head day by day. It's annoying. And pathetic, of course. But for some reason I can't get over him. I mean, it's not like I spent 14 years just obsessing over him... it's more like every time I see him, I would be like a 14 year old facing her first crush ever! And these days it's just gotten worse (thanks to spending just long enough time with him).

Regrets... if only I was brave enough to actually kiss (just his cheeks) in the car that day instead of just play punching and slapping him... but what use is it today? I'm terrified that within these days he might've asked some girl out there to be his girlfriend, or even worse his wife. Where does that leave me?

Question: is it possible for a guy to marry someone he kinda likes just because he gets pressured to marry even though there's someone he loves?

Gosh how I wish I could just call him and tell him, "you know what, I'm going crazy over you. I love you." and then hang up and wait for him to call back. But of course I don't have the guts to do that. In fact I'm pretty scared even writing all this because what if someone in real life reads it and finds out? Why am I scared to let people know that I like (umm... love) him? What is there to be ashamed of? It's all just so confusing.

Of course my closest friends are saying I'm probably not in love with him, but more likely just wanting him because of my regrets about him (are you getting this?). But... how could infatuation last so long? Seriously if he wasn't of Chinese heritage and a Christian too I would question if he perhaps put a spell on me. It's just crazy.

Oh woe is me...

Wordless Wednesday - Looking through the eyes of love

2008-02-27T14:53:00.002+07:00

The scenery from my room's terrace during the Sunday School teacher's retreat last weekend... if you notice it carefully though, I layered it with a picture of Josh :P

Josh. Josh. Josh. Josh.

2008-02-26T16:35:00.002+07:00

I'm absolutely going crazy about this guy... and while I'm sitting here bored with nothing to do, I found this entry in one of my old blogs... well apparently I've been crazy about him since years (no, actually I know that already... I just had to share)
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Sunday, August 29, 2004, 01:03 p.m. - Sweet Nothing...
This morning at Sunday School, Josh (who's now teaching in the same class as me, btw) was story telling, and he started off by asking the kids "Who's beautiful in this class?", expecting some of the girls to raise their hands, but they didn't, while a fellow sunday school teacher (who used to be my junior in high school, just for the record) put up her hand.
Actually, I also raised my hand, for my own pleasure, but only for a split second so Josh didn't see me, but a student did and pointed at me saying "There's another one!" -- which of course, in the context, came out as if the student meant 'there's another one who's beautiful' -- Anyways, guess what Josh said after a quick glance at me (as usual... aaah... can't stand the way he keeps looking at me!)???
He said to the student: "Well, you can certainly tell when someone's beautiful"
Okay, so maybe he just said it, didn't mean anything... but still... coming from Josh, who happens to be my longest crush ever, and who still makes me weak at my knees and my heart beat faster whenever I see him (fortunately I don't see him that often), I can't help but to feel a bit (okay, a lot) happy. Heheheheh :D

Wordless Wednesday - Broken Jar

2008-02-20T14:20:00.002+07:00

This is one of my favorite picture of all the paintings being exhibited at the gallery right now. Actually there are more favorites but anyways... :)

Devastated

2008-02-19T12:07:00.002+07:00

Seriously.

I know you can't make everyone happy, and that trying to do that will just ruin yourself... and that I shouldn't even begin to care about bad things people say when all I did was right... but still...

Everything is just making me sad. I realize I'm also facing burn out, got all the symptoms... and there just seems to be no way out.

I really want to leave my job, hop on a boat to a remote island, turn off my mobile and just inhale the fresh air, bask in the sun and read the Bible... wouldn't that be like heaven? Being in the presence of God. Listening to what he says. Here... I'm just going deeper and deeper into this pit of depression.

And yet, I can't leave this job... my boss is gone for about 3 weeks. And he needs me anyway. Plus, I need the money... I don't think I could survive without the pay I get here. But I definitely could do well without the pain.

God, help me...

Gosh!

2008-02-13T21:54:00.001+07:00

In two days it will be the opening of the exhibition... I'm seriously scared that something... JUST something might go wrong. Please God, help that this exhibition will be a success :)

Neglection Alert (AGAIN) - Quizzes

2008-02-12T13:00:00.000+07:00

I'm freakishly bored with work and so while everybody's busy and won't be noticing me... I'll just wander off to blogthings...

You Are a Super Flirt

You love to flirt, so much so that it gets you in trouble.
In almost any situation, you find yourself flirting - even when it's inappropriate.
You tend to embrace all flirting styles too.. from coy to sexy to playful to serious.
And if someone flirts back, you'll crank it up even more!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

Your Kissing Grade: A+

You are truly an amazing kisser. Your kisses are extraordinarily mind blowing.
Whether you're naturally a good kisser or not, you've taken the time learn how to be the best kisser possible.
Anyone would be lucky to get a kiss from you!

How Do Your Kisses Rate?

You Are 76% Creative

You are beyond creative. You are a true artist - even if it's not in the conventional sense of the word.
You love creating for its own sake, and you find yourself quite inspired at times.

How Creative Are You?

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.
You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.
For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.
A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

You Are the Ego

You take a balanced approach to your life.
You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones.
But you usually think first. Morals drive you as much as hedonism does.
You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Friday's Feast #177

2008-01-25T12:32:00.000+07:00

Appetizer
How many times per day do you usually laugh?
I seriously never counted. Hahah. But I'm sure it's a whole lot of times, especially since writing this sentence alone already made me laugh twice :D

Soup
What do your sunglasses look like?
I can't remember cause I haven't used them for sooooo long. I think they have a blue frame and look like sunglasses. LOL.

Salad
You win a free trip to anywhere on your continent, but you have to travel by train. Where do you go?
Yogya.

Main Course
Name one thing you consider a great quality about living in your town/city.

Hmm... you'll never feel cold? It's always so HOT here. And the sun shines almost everyday. Yeah.

Dessert
If the sky could be another color, what color do you think would look best?
I think it looks just fine being blue... but I have to say I love it when it has streaks of pink like it was yesterday afternoon... too bad I didn't have my camera at that time. It was sooo pretty! :)

Thursday Thirteen - 15th edition

2008-01-24T12:10:00.000+07:00

Thirteen Things that happened since my last post before yesterday...

1.I went to Yogya, finally, after 2 cancellations. The 7th was a bright sunny day and the whole trip was sunny too. What's amazing, during the days planned earlier, there was heavy rain in Yogya. Had we gone there on those date, we wouldn't be able to go an visit the painters, and I wouldn't have...

2. Made a new circle of friends, consisting of roughly 27 painters. LOL. They'll be exhibiting their works at the gallery. Perhaps you'd like a sneak preview?

3. I was also sick the week after, with a heavy flu. I had a fever. But after the fever was gone, I still had cold sweat. So, mom decided to...

4. take me to the doctor. We also had a blood test, but it turns out I was perfectly healthy. Thus the doctor declared that...

5. I am stressed out. LOL. It was probably true... I was dreading having to work each day. So anyways...

6. I'll be quitting my full time job. But not until the exhibition. And really, I'm still a bit in between wanting desperately to go and thinking of all I would leave behind. But I'm quitting. I have to. It's just not making any sense to stick with something that I don't like to do, is it?

7. I met with my college friend who also recently quit her job. LOL.

8. We ate at Death by Chocolate, which lived up to its name making me almost sick again because of the amount of chocolate I had. But it was heavenly! Really.

9. I've been addicted to (fluff)Friends... especially since that Turkle sold for 3000 Munny (see my rant below).

10. I didn't really want to do a TT post today because I would rather browse around (fluff)Friends :P

11. I really should get some work done, though... very bad of me. I need to finish the design of the invitation and catalog for the exhibition.

12. I also realized just how much I like doing layout/design. Thinking of taking courses on that and pursue my career in that field too once I finally quit.

13. That's on top of about a zillion other things I have in mind, which includes opening a small library, giving away some teddies to kids in need, and of course starting my Master's Degree :)

How have you been?

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Do you like paintings?

2008-01-22T15:01:00.000+07:00

Thought I'd shamelessly plug my gallery's upcoming exhibition, KABA RANG RANTAU.

This exhibition will feature works by 27 painters all originally from West Sumatra (Minangkabau/Padang) but now living in Yogyakarta. The title translates roughly to news from the people on their journey away from home, that is the reason behind the air-mail like design.

Perhaps you want to buy some paintings? Check out the website and let me know ;)

About (fluff)Friends

2008-01-21T18:58:00.000+07:00

First of all... I know it's been a long while. For update on where/how I've been, however, please come back on Thursday cause I plan on posting a TT called '13 Things That Happened While I Was Gone' :P

But for now... I want to talk about the Facebook app called (fluff)Friends. I've loved this app since I first laid eyes on it thanks to the cute (C-U-T-E cute) graphics. Lately they've been adding more and more features that is just delightful. One of such feature is the Limited Item Shop where you can buy/sell rare items.

It just so happens that I have several limited edition items available. Including this so called mini TURKLE, which is basically a little Turkey, which looks like this:

The Turkle was available during Thanksgiving, obviously, and I only bought it in the spirit of Thanksgiving. Although it is cute, it's really not THAT cute. So I decided to sell my Turkle... for 3000 Munny considering that the lowest price was 3050 Munny (Munny, btw, is (fluff)Friends currency). As a comparison, the highest amount of Munny I had during my time playing (fluff)Friends is about 400.

To my surprise... the Turkle SOLD. Seriously. I wonder where people get that kind of Munny, but I wonder even more why they want to buy a TURKLE for that amount of Munny. But apparently the Turkle is very popular, so whatever.

Lookie... it's a new layout!

2008-01-05T13:53:00.000+07:00

Despite the fact that I loved the last layout, it obviously had to go because it is no longer Christmas. Even if we are supposed to keep the Christmas spirit all year long.

So here's a new layout, a Saturday well spent, I must say, as I LOVE this layout (as always). This time there's no more fancy confusing navigations. It's just a clean, simple layout. Hope you like it, cause it's staying for a long time... well, at least until February. I might (MIGHT) cook up a lovey dovey layout then in the spirit of Valentine. Hahah.

Until then...

Friday's Feast #174

2008-01-04T12:39:00.000+07:00

Appetizer
When was the last time you received a surprise in the mail, and what was it?
In the mail?? Hmm... A few months ago, my cousin sent a pack of mini sweaters/clothing items for my bears :)

Soup
If you could have a summer and/or winter home, where would you want it to be?
I'd love a winter home... in Switzerland!

Salad
Pick one: pineapple, orange, banana, apple, cherry.
Banana. Or can I have all of 'em together mixed as a fruit salad? ;P

Main Course
Describe the nicest piece of clothing that you own.
It's a blouse, blue, 3/4 sleeve with very soft material (although I'm not sure what material it is).

Dessert
If you could forget one whole day from your life, which day would you choose to wipe from your memory?
I already forgot a lot of days. LOL. So, none, I guess.

Thursday Thirteen - 14th edition

2008-01-03T12:29:00.000+07:00

As a tribute to my newly found passion for prayer... here's a TT on How Prayer Works For ME (with special thanks to Judy

This morning, I was supposed to fly to Yogya. Mom however was praying that if I should not go, it would rain. What d'ya know... it was a bright day, until we reached the airport gates. It poured. Yep. I canceled my flight.
Still speaking of the Yogya trip, I had prayed that God will show me a sign whether or not I should go. Well, He apparently chose to talk through my mom.
The story about my uncle... which you can read in this post and this post.
For the last two days, I specifically requested to wake up at 7am, and 6am respectively. Yeps. It happened. To the dot. If you think that's coincidence... yesterday I had actually woken up by a dream at 6am. Yet I was so sleepy so I closed my eyes. The next moment I opened my eyes, it was 7am.
There was this one time when I was waiting for the hot water to be ready, and I really really had to rush to church... so I prayed that it would be ready. The moment I opened my eyes, the indicator went off. It was ready.
While I was thinking whether or not I should continue my job, I prayed that if God wanted me to continue, I would get a raise. Out of the blue, my boss told me I would get a raise (which I did) last December.
A few months back, I prayed the prayer of Jabez for a week or so after I read the book. I had since forgotten about it, but looking back, God has indeed enlarged my territory. I am now doing the church's magazine for the Sunday School kids, as well as doing the layout and writing for the Sunday School devotional. For the record, we have about 600 registered kids at the Sunday School. Yup. Very large territory.
Speaking of Sunday School, it has been way too many times that I prayed that when I teach, God would help me and let me know what to say. I always do. Sometimes, I say things I never planned to say, but it just flows together perfectly. Which is awesome.
When I am about to send a potentially dangerous SMS, like saying something important or so that I'm not sure about... I always pray that if God wants me to say it, it will be send, otherwise fail. There were actually times it failed. And other times, when it is sent, I receive positive replies.
Also this one time I was sending a large file over e-mail and half way... it FAILED. I was so annoyed, but I remembered to pray instead. I resent the e-mail and it was gone in no time.
Ever tried finding a parking space on the weekends at the mall? Well, I've found that when I pray for it, AND we actually had something important to get, we will find space.
Oh, then there was this one time when one employee at the music school was lying to us, and we were thinking about firing him, but couldn't find a good enough reason. And we really didn't have money to pay his release fee (I don't know what it's called) We prayed. The next morning, the employee sent a resignation letter.
And of course, the story of prayer that never ceases to amaze me... the story of my birth... how mom prayed that if dad was her true love, I would be born on the 13th. And despite being due early December, I was born Nov 13th.

Do you have any 'prayer' stories?

Everyday Kindness - Day One and Two

2008-01-02T17:53:00.000+07:00

Claudia initiated the Everyday Kindness project a while ago on a Thursday Thirteen post.

The idea is to simply do ONE act of kindness for each day in 2008. That's really not much... but just imagine what a better world it would be if we all decide to do something like this. Now I'm thinking whether or not I should blog about the 'kindness I do. I mean, wouldn't blogging about it be a bit like bragging about it? But maybe not. This isn't about letting people know what I did. It's about commitment. Writing down something always helps the commitment, as I rediscovered in my journal (which I started on the 23rd of December).

So yeah... here goes...

For Day One: I played with my niece (who's five years old), and probably made her day cause I took her on a trip (from her house to mine) to go swimming. I loved how she was gleaming as we returned her home, carrying four balloons in her hand and smiling like a five year old should (she's normally quiet and really doesn't smile much!).

and Day Two: I prayed for some people on Pray About :)

Thinking of taking part in Claudia's revolution? Join Everyday Kindness!

Wordless Wednesday - My New Hairstyle

2008-01-02T17:35:00.001+07:00

I shook off the urge to slack off thanks to those of you who commented on my Friday's Feast last Friday (that would be Judy, Sandee, Jennifer, and Claudia).

Here's a WW post of my new 'do!

Sorry the pic isn't that good, I took it with my phone in a pretty dark condition... hopefully I'll get a nicer picture soon (I'm constantly on the look for a nice profile pic that shows my hair! LOL)

Oh, and some update on my uncle (read my prayer request a few post below): he has returned from the hospital, and doing much, much better. And what makes me happiest of all... they have started going to church and praying again! That goes for my uncle, his new wife, and his old wife. Also... their first daughter is doing better as she has changed her attitude towards the better. Please keep praying :)

Slacking off... again...

2008-01-02T17:12:00.000+07:00

At least only in blogging. Hahaha.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, WORLD!

It's going to be a busy year as is evident from the two days I have lived... hopefully I will still find time to blog.

I'll be flying to Yogya tomorrow on a business trip. Should be fun, but I'm also scared. I mean, I will be traveling with a practical stranger, and meeting a whole bunch of people, which is really out of my comfort zone.

Been feeling a bit low today. Like losing my connection with God. Why? Wish I knew. I'm desperate to start my Master's degree. Could really use an 'excuse' to dwell in God's words, prayer, reading the Bible, and such.

I'm also looking for an accountability partner... someone to guide me through my way... I'm praying someone would read this post and make themselves available *hint, hint*

Or better yet, perhaps you are willing to sponsor me? Help me by sending me books? That would just be awesome. I'm praying.

Oh, speaking of prayer... please, if there are any prayer requests, send them to me. I want to pray for you. From deep down in my heart.

God bless everyone!

Friday's Feast #173

2007-12-28T19:27:00.000+07:00

A bit late for today's feast... I went to the salon this afternoon and had a haircut as well as permed my hair! Lovin' the way it looks, but you will need to wait for a pic cause I'm too lazy to do that now. Here's the feast, enjoy!

Appetizer

Name 2 things you would like to accomplish in 2008.

1. lose weight, and 2. start a Master's degree, preferably in Theology/Divinity/the like.

Soup

With which cartoon character do you share personality traits?

There was this personality quiz I can't remember where (I think it was in facebook) called which Disney Character are you, and I got Belle (from Beauty and the Beast)! I couldn't agree more.

Salad

What time of day (or night) were you born?

17.35 aka 5.35PM, so it was afternoon.

Main Course

Tell us something special about your hometown.

Jakarta is the capital city of Indonesia, so it's where all the hustle and bustle is. The most crowded city in Indonesia, it has a population of about 12 million people but during day time it increases to I think 16 million as the others live in the satellite cities.

Dessert

If you could receive a letter from anyone in the world, who would you want to get one from?

Anyone in the world huh? Hmm... I'm going to have to say Keanu (as in Pink Panther's brother. Yes, those are nicknames) :P

In case I have no time to post anymore... HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! (It's going to be a pretty busy one for me!)

Prayer Request

2007-12-28T12:14:00.000+07:00

My uncle was involved in an accident a few weeks ago, and is in pretty bad condition. The hospital bill has amounted about $1400, so please pray that we could raise enough money to cover the bill, as well as further medication needed.

There's a whole lot more to the story as my uncle had left his wife and two kids for another woman and they now have a baby as well. He also moved from Bali to a remote city in the hopes to receive more income but instead he is always low on money. Now with the accident it will be worse because he won't be able to work for at least 3 months.

On the other hand, his daughter from the first marriage is heartbroken and very rebellious. Also, she was hospitalized for dengue fever last week.

I might need to add that both families are not making enough money.

Please pray for them. While you're at it, perhaps you could also pray that they will return to God (yes, all of them), because they had left their faith.

Thank you and God Bless.

Randomness

2007-12-26T18:25:00.000+07:00

I finally started a 'journal' on the 23rd. Originally I wanted to wait until new year's and make it sort of a project for 2008. But I couldn't resist the urge anymore. LOL.
I'm currently using the empty book I got from Girlosophy, and it's looking fab. I haven't yet turned it into a scrapbook though... mainly because I haven't really got anything to paste in, and no time either. But at least it serves well as a writing outlet, and I'm loving it. I also made a point of using it as a sermon journal, a gratitude journal (I write down 3 things I'm thankful about each day), as well as to write in random quotes I find inspiring.

Other than that... hmm... Christmas eve was great even though there was a minor glitch that was major enough to fill two pages of my journal about Josh. But I decided he's not going to ruin my Christmas so I'm not going to repeat the story.

Next up, my cousin had delivered the two bibles I ordered, but forgot the booklet about Aslan as well as all the extras (read: catalogs) that were sent together, so when I saw it on her desk this morning I casually asked about it and not it's in my hands. I hate the fact that Christianbook.com doesn't send to Indonesia. But maybe it's a good thing, I might become broke for ordering too many things. Hahah. And it's so awesome that they have special prices. I mean seriously. The two Bibles I ordered? They cost me $4.99 each. That's about 10% of what it would cost if sold in any bookstore here in Jakarta. I'm also freakin' over their surprise packs. Eeks! I've always loved surprise bags when I was younger. I didn't get a lot of them because they don't have it here. But every time we're in Germany I would get one (or two, or three) of 'em... you know those bags/boxes filled with all the 'leftovers' at the store? Very cheap, and lots of fun! Will someone PLEASE send me those things?? :D

My other cousin forgot to buy me the YP's I asked her to buy for me in Singapore and now mom has agreed to let me subscribe! Hahaha. While I was looking at the website... there were special offers! I had to get them. Luckily they send to Indonesia. Now all I have to do is wait for it to arrive. Hopefully not TOO long.

People, if you live in America, Europe, or in fact Singapore... would you please be so kind to let me send stuff to your house? Hahaha... even better yet if you would be kind enough to just buy me stuff? LOL. Just kidding. I wouldn't mind though. Who would, right? Right!

I wish you a merry christmas!

2007-12-24T12:00:00.000+07:00

Afrikaans: Geseënde Kersfees

Afrikander: Een Plesierige Kerfees

African/ Eritrean/ Tigrinja: Rehus-Beal-Ledeats

Albanian:Gezur Krislinjden

Arabic: Milad Majid

Argentine: Feliz Navidad

Armenian: Shenoraavor Nor Dari yev Pari Gaghand

Azeri: Tezze Iliniz Yahsi Olsun

Bahasa Malaysia: Selamat Hari Natal

Basque: Zorionak eta Urte Berri On!

Bengali: Shuvo Naba Barsha

Bohemian: Vesele Vanoce

Brazilian: Feliz Natal

Breton: Nedeleg laouen na bloavezh mat

Bulgarian: Tchestita Koleda; Tchestito Rojdestvo Hristovo

Catalan: Bon Nadal i un Bon Any Nou!

Chile: Feliz Navidad

Chinese: (Cantonese) Gun Tso Sun Tan'Gung Haw Sun

Chinese: (Mandarin) Kung His Hsin Nien bing Chu Shen Tan (Catonese) Gun Tso Sun Tan'Gung Haw Sun

Choctaw: Yukpa, Nitak Hollo Chito

Columbia: Feliz Navidad y Próspero Año Nuevo

Cornish: Nadelik looan na looan blethen noweth

Corsian: Pace e salute

Crazanian: Rot Yikji Dol La Roo

Cree: Mitho Makosi Kesikansi

Croatian: Sretan Bozic

Czech: Prejeme Vam Vesele Vanoce a stastny Novy Rok

Danish: Glædelig Jul

Duri: Christmas-e- Shoma Mobarak

Dutch: Vrolijk Kerstfeest en een Gelukkig Nieuwjaar! or Zalig Kerstfeast

English: Merry Christmas

Eskimo: (inupik) Jutdlime pivdluarit ukiortame pivdluaritlo!

Esperanto: Gajan Kristnaskon

Estonian: Ruumsaid juulup|hi

Ethiopian: (Amharic) Melkin Yelidet Beaal

Faeroese: Gledhilig jol og eydnurikt nyggjar!

Farsi: Cristmas-e-shoma mobarak bashad

Finnish: Hyvaa joulua

Flemish: Zalig Kerstfeest en Gelukkig nieuw jaar

French: Joyeux Noel

Frisian: Noflike Krystdagen en in protte Lok en Seine yn it Nije Jier!

Galician: Bo Nada

Gaelic: Nollaig chridheil agus Bliadhna mhath ùr!

German: Fröhliche Weihnachten

Greek: Kala Christouyenna!

Haiti: (Creole) Jwaye Nowel or to Jesus Edo Bri'cho o Rish D'Shato Brichto

Hausa: Barka da Kirsimatikuma Barka da Sabuwar Shekara!

Hawaiian: Mele Kalikimaka

Hebrew: Mo'adim Lesimkha. Chena tova

Hindi: Shub Naya Baras

Hausa: Barka da Kirsimatikuma Barka da Sabuwar Shekara!

Hawaian: Mele Kalikimaka ame Hauoli Makahiki Hou!

Hungarian: Kellemes Karacsonyi unnepeket

Icelandic: Gledileg Jol

Indonesian: Selamat Hari Natal

Iraqi: Idah Saidan Wa Sanah Jadidah

Irish: Nollaig Shona Dhuit, or Nodlaig mhaith chugnat

Iroquois: Ojenyunyat Sungwiyadeson honungradon nagwutut. Ojenyunyat osrasay.

Italian: Buone Feste Natalizie

Japanese: Shinnen omedeto. Kurisumasu Omedeto

Jiberish: Mithag Crithagsigathmithags

Korean: Sung Tan Chuk Ha

Lao: souksan van Christmas

Latin: Natale hilare et Annum Faustum!

Latvian: Prieci'gus Ziemsve'tkus un Laimi'gu Jauno Gadu!

Lausitzian:Wjesole hody a strowe nowe leto

Lettish: Priecigus Ziemassvetkus

Lithuanian: Linksmu Kaledu

Low Saxon: Heughliche Winachten un 'n moi Nijaar

Macedonian: Sreken Bozhik

Maltese: IL-Milied It-tajjeb

Manx: Nollick ghennal as blein vie noa

Maori: Meri Kirihimete

Marathi: Shub Naya Varsh

Navajo: Merry Keshmish

Norwegian: God Jul, or Gledelig Jul

Occitan: Pulit nadal e bona annado

Papiamento: Bon Pasco

Papua New Guinea: Bikpela hamamas blong dispela Krismas na Nupela yia i go long yu

Pennsylvania German: En frehlicher Grischtdaag un en hallich Nei Yaahr!

Peru: Feliz Navidad y un Venturoso Año Nuevo

Philipines: Maligayan Pasko!

Polish: Wesolych Swiat Bozego Narodzenia or Boze Narodzenie

Portuguese:Feliz Natal

Pushto: Christmas Aao Ne-way Kaal Mo Mobarak Sha

Rapa-Nui (Easter Island): Mata-Ki-Te-Rangi. Te-Pito-O-Te-Henua

Rhetian: Bellas festas da nadal e bun onn

Romanche: (sursilvan dialect): Legreivlas fiastas da Nadal e bien niev onn!

Rumanian: Sarbatori vesele or Craciun fericit

Russian: Pozdrevlyayu s prazdnikom Rozhdestva is Novim Godom

Sami: Buorrit Juovllat

Samoan: La Maunia Le Kilisimasi Ma Le Tausaga Fou

Sardinian: Bonu nadale e prosperu annu nou

Serbian: Hristos se rodi

Slovakian: Sretan Bozic or Vesele vianoce

Sami: Buorrit Juovllat

Samoan: La Maunia Le Kilisimasi Ma Le Tausaga Fou

Scots Gaelic: Nollaig chridheil huibh

Serbian: Hristos se rodi.

Singhalese: Subha nath thalak Vewa. Subha Aluth Awrudhak Vewa

Slovak: Vesele Vianoce. A stastlivy Novy Rok

Slovene: Vesele Bozicne Praznike Srecno Novo Leto or Vesel Bozic in srecno Novo
leto

Spanish: Feliz Navidad

Swedish: God Jul and (Och) Ett Gott Nytt År

Tagalog: Maligayamg Pasko. Masaganang Bagong Taon

Tami: Nathar Puthu Varuda Valthukkal

Trukeese: (Micronesian) Neekiriisimas annim oo iyer seefe feyiyeech!

Thai: Sawadee Pee Mai or souksan wan Christmas

Turkish: Noeliniz Ve Yeni Yiliniz Kutlu Olsun

Ukrainian: Srozhdestvom Kristovym or Z RIZDVOM HRYSTOVYM

Urdu: Naya Saal Mubarak Ho

Vietnamese: Chuc Mung Giang Sinh

Welsh: Nadolig Llawen

Yoruba: E ku odun, e ku iye'dun!

The thing i hate about josh is...

2007-12-23T12:33:00.000+07:00

That everytime I decide I'm over him... He goes and do something that makes me go ga ga all over again. Duh

happy mother's day!

2007-12-22T16:01:00.000+07:00

Mom's surprise arrived, and even though she scolded me for buying such an expensive flower arrangement, I know she's happy. Well, she told me she is too. She said it's the first time anyone gave her flowers on Mother's Day. Obviously, since it's the first time I bought her one. And I'm her only daughter now, am I not? Well, there's my brother. But he's not that thoughtful. LOL.

I ordered a White Lily arrangement, and even though the florist's arrangement isn't very nice, the flowers are just amazing! And they smell amazing too, it's filling the whole house. But I think it's triggering my allergies. Eugh. Anyways, mom's happily taking pictures of the flowers, so I'm happy :)

Oh, and BTW, in case you're wondering... it's actually Mother's Day in Indonesia today. I have no idea about the history, but yeah... mothers in Indonesia get to have two mother's days! :D

Did I mention that...

2007-12-21T18:21:00.000+07:00

I have received yet MORE early Christmas pressies? Hahah. I'm so lucky, I know. I got a new bag & a new pair of shoes, both very pretty. The bag is blue and it has prints of butterflies with glitter. The shoes are black with a silver buckle. And then I also got some 'minor' items like stickers, key chain, and hair accessories.

And of course my cousin arrived with the teddy bear which turned out to be Pummy (in a smaller size than the link, I think). Funny thing is... I already have Urs, so it was as if Urs got a lil brother (or son). Look at how cute they are together:

I'm still waiting for my cousin to bring over the two bibles I ordered and shipped to her. Then my life will be complete. LOL. Oh wait, I forgot that when I was looking for the links for Urs and Pummy, I found this. Eeeks... I want!! Guess human are never satisfied, huh? And then again... you can't have everything. But God is really awesome! He gives you the perfect thing at the perfect timing. It just amazes me every time.

You see, we (mom & I) held a small 'Christmas Party' with the employees of the Music School earlier. Mom had prepared presents of two silver cross necklaces, two new watches, and one used watch but still in very good condition. Since we thought it would be unfair otherwise, we packed everything in the same white envelope and had them choose. To my amazement... Ms. A, a former Catholic now pretty much an atheist that Mom's trying to bring back to the faith (she's willing to, just needs a little push) got the cross necklace. Mom, seeing the opportunity, commented it was a sign that she should come back. I think she will.

Ms. D got a new watch. She said: "God really is good... I was just planning to buy myself a watch this Christmas!"

And Ms. J got the used watch... the amazing thing is... mom had planned to give her that particular watch before deciding to pack it up as a Christmas present. LOL.

Gosh, I love Christmas :)

Christmas Quizzes

2007-12-21T16:29:00.000+07:00

What The Holidays Mean to You

For you, the holidays are a very spiritual time. You have as much holiday fun as everyone else - but you never forget what you're celebrating.

You celebrate the holidays in a offbeat style. You believe the holidays are for doing whatever you feel like - and some of your "traditions" are pretty wacky.

During the holidays, you like to feel cozy and comfortable. You're happy to stay inside with a roaring fire and a warm drink.

You think the holidays should be nostalgic and sweet. The holidays bring out your inner child.

Your best holiday memories are of childhood foods and traditions. You secretly still wish you believed in Santa Claus.

What Do the Holidays Mean to You?

You Are a Funny Gift Giver

Your gifts are wacky, offbeat, and even borderline naughty.
You prefer to give a gift that makes someone crack up...
Forget utility. You prefer to give something that's totally hilarious.

What Kind of Gift Giver Are You?

Your Christmas Sprit Level: 60%

You have a lot of Christmas spirit, and it's evident to most people who know you.
You love most things Christmas, and you do your best to make sure everyone has a great holiday.

While you like the more commercial aspects of Christmas, you truly know what the spirit of Christmas is about.
You're all about giving, being kind, and sharing the spirit of Christmas with everyone you know.

Do You Have the Christmas Spirit?

You Know a Lot About Christmas

You got 9/10 correct

You know tons about the history and traditions surrounding Christmas.
When you celebrate the holidays, you never forget their true meaning - or all the little fun details.

Random Christmas fact: December 25th was not celebrated as the birthday of Christ until the year AD 440.

How Much Do You Know About Christmas?

You Are Christmas

More than most people, you are able to find magic in life's small moments.
Traditions mean a lot to you, and you tend to be quite nostalgic.
You are a giving, kind person who really understands the true meaning of holidays.
You inspire others to be as altruistic and caring as you are.

What makes you celebrate: Tradition and a generous spirit

At holiday get togethers, you do best as: The storyteller. You like to recount memories with everyone.

On a holiday, you're the one most likely to: Give a gift to everyone you know

What Holiday Are You?

No TT today!

2007-12-20T21:18:00.000+07:00

Cause I've been out of the house since early morning. I'm still in the car now, in fact.

We went to an orphanage cum old people's house (is there a special name for it?) with the choir to celebrate Christmas. To all of our surprises, there were 3 groups arriving at the same time... So it was a HUGE celebration! Lots of fun, I tell you! I hope we manage to cheer the grandmas & grandpas because some really look very sad. Who wouldn't be. I went around to take pictures so maybe I'll post that on next week's TT.

Next up, my brother had been judging a choir festival at one of the big and famous malls here, and today was the finals! There was this quite famous Indonesian singer, Edo Kondologit singing The First Noel and I sang the harmony next to the stage. He heard me and offered me the mike. But guess what? Yep. I chickened out. There goes my chance to be famous. LOL.

Anyways, mom and I couldn't stay for the competition because we had a rehearsal for Christmas Eve at church. I wasn't too happy bout going but sort of had to cause I have a solo part to sing. And THEN when I arrived... Guess who was there? JOSH. Totally unexpected. He was playing one of the shepherds. Funny though, as I sat there, I no longer feel the way I used to feel when I'm around Josh. In fact I felt almost normal.

So... Was it really just infatuation all these years, and have I finally moved on? I'm not sure whether I'd be happy or sad if the answer is yes. D'oh. Oh, I did feel this terrible urge to straighten his polo shirt collar. Hahaha. Okay. Enough nonsense. I'll reach home soon. Boss is arriving home too tonight. I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad about this either. I guess I'll have to take my usual approach and just go with the flow ;)

Wordless Wednesday - Christmas Gifs

2007-12-19T13:36:00.000+07:00

Feel free to grab anything you like ;)

No way... but oh, yes!

2007-12-18T12:26:00.000+07:00

I got EVEN MORE early Christmas presents today :D

Which includes the latest PostSecret book, a Christmas song CD, a CD from an Indonesian band I'm not even that sure I'm going to like, a 40th anniversary edition DVD of Sound of Music, and a DVD of Paris Je T'aime movie.

I really think I should get some work done now. Hahah.

tired...

2007-12-17T20:21:00.000+07:00

I finally finished most of the hard work... (breathes in and out) all the layouting for my Sunday School devotional and the kid's magazine done! It was hard work, but it never ceases to make me happy once it's printed and hundreds of people will see it, and probably be blessed by it. It's such a happy feeling! I also sent all the pending e-mails (I think)... but as always, I can't help but wonder if there's something I forgot. And usually there is. But anyway.

Oh, in case you haven't guessed, I had a pretty busy weekend. Had a mental breakdown on work but it's okay for now cause my boss will be in Singapore til Thursday. Hahah. I'm seriously thinking of leaving, though. It's just that I haven't found a replacement, and I don't think I can afford not having my usual income (even if it's only been a few months).

On other things, the Sunday School Christmas celebration on Saturday went pretty good, and singing at church Sunday morning was okay too. Sunday School was great, especially cause we're going to have a joint class again next week (read: a 100% chance of meeting Josh, unless he bails his Storytelling task, which is unlikely).

Speaking of Josh, yes, I'm still somewhat obsessed by him. Although I wasn't acting THAT stupid yesterday. I think. LOL. It's seriously time for me to move on. For all I know Josh might be engaged to that girl I saw him hugging around the mall a few months back. And he's probably not interested in me anymore. Not that he ever was. He just might have played me all along, seeing how freakishly attracted to him I was. Right? Or maybe not. It's all just really confusing, and I think... I think I should just take it one step at the time. As they always say, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Enough about Josh. I also feel the need to report that I AM LOVING MY NEW PHONE! Yeaah...! Now I'm off to sleep. It's raining heavily. Should be very nice to sleep. Or have a cup of hot chocolate. But I already had two today. I'm endangering my weight loss. Sleep it is.

Gprs blogging

2007-12-14T17:48:00.000+07:00

I'm posting this sitting in the car on the way to choir practice, using my new phone's Opera browser and GPRS which my lil cousin set up for me earlier (I was seriously clueless bout getting it to work despite being quite adapt to technology in everything else).
I'm loving this but I'm also somewhat scared bout what it will do to my phone credit :'(
note to self: must get self a twitter account! Hahaha

Friday's Feast #172

2007-12-14T13:31:00.000+07:00

Appetizer

Make up a word and give us its definition.
Gosh, I'm really not feeling that creative at the moment... hmm... dillifc (dill-if-see) which means 'do I look like I freakin' care?! LOL.

Soup

What is currently your favorite song?
All I want for Christmas - Mariah Carey

Salad

What’s at the top of your Christmas wish list this year?
Baby, All I want for Christmas is you... ;)
Hahaha... Okay, if you read some of my older entries you'll notice that I already got most of the stuff I wanted. But in the spirit of Christmas, I wish for surprises! Lots and lots of nice surprises! :D

Main Course

Name a scent that reminds you of someone special in your life.
Hmm... there's this one perfume I still haven't figured out what brand it is. I think it was CK. But it doesn't really remind me of a particular someone, it just messes with my mind and feeling terribly (in a good way, that is).

Dessert

Who is someone on television that you feel probably shouldn’t be, and why?
Most of the Indonesian TV drama actors and actresses, because they really can't act and the drama itself sucks.

Thursday Thirteen - 13th edition

2007-12-13T13:26:00.000+07:00

Whoa, I've been so busy the whole day! It's amazing. And there's still a zillion things on my to do list. Good gracious! I'm taking some time off to write this anyway. Who would miss an opportunity to write the 13th edition of Thursday Thirteen on the 13th??? Not me.

13 Reasons Why I Love the Number 13

First and foremost... I was born on the 13th.
It gets better. When my mom was studying in Germany, she lived with a couple I consider my grandparens. Both of them were also born on the 13th.
Not cool enough? By the time I was born, they have been living in their house for 13 years.
Best of all, My dad was also born on the 13th...
And here's the freaky part. I was NOT supposed to be born on the 13th. I was due early December, but mom (not yet a Christian at the time) sort of prayed that if my dad was her true love, I would be born on the 13th. You know what happened.
Next up, my first ever crush was also born on a 13th. (PS: I dreamed about him last night, it was so vivid I am still disturbed to this moment. It was a sweet dream, though)
AND, the guy who was my first kiss, was also born on the 13th.
I kinda wish that my true love will also be born on a 13th. But that would eliminate Josh, Mr. Nonsense, Keanu, and a bunch of other guys I like from the list, and instead include this guy I'm trying to avoid. So maybe not. Would be pretty cool though. Who knows...
Did I mention that I was 13 when I got my first period?
I also like the number 13 because there are many people who don't like it. Sort of makes it special :)
Oh, and I won the 'battle' over the number 13 during my internship. Mr. Nonsense was making a uniform t-shirt for all of us, and my manager wanted the number 13 (he was also born on a 13th, BTW), but Mr. Nonsense told him it was mine! Hahaha.
That means I have a shirt with the number 13 on the back. Actually two, because I nicked the design for our class T-Shirt, and even though the guy I'm trying to avoid (see a few numbers up) begged to have a number 13, I made one using the number 13 anyway :P
Last but not least, there's a meme called Thursday Thirteen, which I love very, VERY much!

even MORE early christmas pressies!

2007-12-11T12:17:00.000+07:00

guess who finally got a new mobile phone after all?? Yeps... I have a new phone! And I'm loving it! Love, love, love my Nokia 5310 Xpress Music Mobile Phone. It's just so pretty... and all in blue (I got the blue version, of course)! The casing is very nice metallic blue, and inside, EVERYTHING is blue, the menu, the themes. And it's also very thin and small... like I mentioned yesterday, almost the size of my iPod nano. It's half the size of my blue Samsung (I found out it's a SGH E-870).

I still can't really part with the Samsung though... all because I keep remembering Mr. Nonsense's expression when he first saw that phone. It was priceless. But then again, despite his dislike of Nokia phones, I'd bet I'd get a similar expression on this Nokia as well. And it's not like Mr. Nonsense still matters to me anyway. So yeah, I guess I could handle parting with my nice blue Samsung. It's rather old and dusty anyway. Maybe I'll take several photos of it as a remembrance too. Or... maybe sooner or later I'll get the Nokia 2505 CDMA, and that might get my mind off the Samsung since they're pretty similar (except the Nokia is sooo much thinner).

Oh, there's still one more catch about the Nokia. I'm dreading the fact that I will see zillion of people using the same phone in the near future. I just CAN'T stand being 'one of the crowd'. My Samsung's are very unique. That's because when they first came out, they didn't get a chance to be popular because the company straight away launched a new line. Hey, who knows Nokia might do the same with the 5310. I doubt it though. The things too pretty. It should take them some time to come up with something better. Maybe a bigger memory? Well, I'll leave it to the Nokia people. I'm content. Really, I am.

Blissful Sunday

2007-12-10T11:02:00.000+07:00

It all started when we woke up late for church. Seriously. We made it quite on time though. Sunday School was awesome cause the kids were great and of course Josh was there too despite his late coming and annoyed expression at some point of the hour.

As I mentioned earlier it was my turn to do the sermon, and thank God it went well. I find it amazing every time God seems to put thoughts in my head and words in my mouth, and everything just sort of flows together nicely (Romans 8:26 is so true!). And the children's expressions... priceless! My colleague left me and Josh to train the kids to sing for their Christmas musical, and that went pretty good too. They actually sang quite well, I must say.

This was then followed by a somewhat in-depth bible study as we prepared ourselves for next week's service. Oh, and I talked my way to have the two classes joined again, so I'll be seeing Josh, again. Hahaha. But then again, I'm still unsure about Josh... but I can't help myself. Whatever. Let me enjoy it while I still can, right? Right.

After that... mom and I went to the mall and we stayed there for hours cause my brother had a family meeting to attend (he's my 'adopted' brother, in case you're wondering, so he has a whole set of different family than mine. But that's a long story). We went to see One Night with the King, which was really not as bad as the review (my review coming soon). Then, we went for a shopping spree, which was lots of fun and I got more early Christmas presents. Including, an ODM watch I've always wanted to have (more details on that later), two teddy bears (merchandise bears, actually. One from Metro department store and the other from The Body Shop, which means I also got a new tub of lip balm and body butter since it came with the bear), Pixar's Short Animation DVD volume 1, and two Bible Study books.

I also almost got a new handphone (a new Nokia which is about the size of my iPod Nano. I forgot the type) but I hesitated because it meant that I have to give mom my Blue Samsung (I can't remember the type, either) which I love very much, so I passed on the offer. I kinda regret it now. I'm trying to talk mom into buying the handphone for me, but it's not working. Yet. :D

To top it all, we went for dinner at an all-you-can-eat Japanese BBQ restaurant, which was amazing although it attributed to me gaining weight. Hope to lose it back today, though. And of course, what made it all so blissful... my boss did not contact me at ALL the whole day (and Saturday too)! Woohooo. It was awesome. Really. I haven't returned to reality :P

hmm...

2007-12-08T22:14:00.000+07:00

There was a glitch in the code before which made it impossible to go to other pages once you click on either link. It kept me uneasy all through the shopping trip. Hahah.

Fixed that.

Next up... I forgot my counter, and the code for MyBlogLog. Must fix tomorrow. Now, it's time to shower and sleep. It's late!

Ciao, people! In case you're really reading this, please comment even just to say hi. Thank you.

whoa, I did it... I did it!

2007-12-08T19:38:00.000+07:00

New layout at your service! Let me know what you think :)

Some things are not yet working, of course. Such as my nifty smiley thingy. Must work out the code again to figure it out. But for now I'm content. I'm also sleepy. And tomorrow I have to go to church early morning followed by Sunday School as usual. OMG. I have to tell the story tomorrow and I haven't prepared! VERY bad. Mom wants to go shopping. Gosh.

Anyways, at least the layouts up. I'm very happy.

working on the new layout

2007-12-08T18:50:00.000+07:00

I've decided to throw in a Christmas layout after all. But it still needs much work. Hmm... hopefully I could finish it. I'm seriously running out of ideas. Help. Help!! :))

Boredom Fillers

2007-12-08T11:47:00.000+07:00

You Have Many Alpha Tendencies

You're not a total alpha female, but you certainly know how to - and like to - get your way.
You're forceful without being intimidating. You're confident without being vain. A perfect mix.

Are You an Alpha Female?

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.
People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

You Are a Good Student of Men

You're pretty good at knowing what men are thinking
But you're not dead on 100% of the time
Let your guy off the hook sometimes... because you may be reading him all wrong!

How Well Do You Understand Men?

You Are a Passionate Kisser

You are the most likely type to kiss a sexy stranger

Your kissing style is unpredictable and free spirited

You could kiss anyone at a drop of a hat

It's all about where your passion leads you

What's Your Kissing Style?

is blogger being evil?

2007-12-07T14:05:00.000+07:00

It is taking me YEARS to get to comment forms when it is in a pop-up. Are you experiencing the same thing, or is it just my internet connection?

I'm turning off the pop-up on my blog for the moment to see what will happen...

Friday's Feast #171

2007-12-07T12:35:00.000+07:00

First of all thank you everyone who visited my TT yesterday. Hope all of you will get to see Enchanted soon! You absolutely MUST watch it. Not that my opinion counts that much, really :P

Thank you as well for the comments about my layout. I can't take full credit for it though, since the original code was made by Daisy, although I did alter it to fit my taste ;)

I'm very sorry about the long loading code. Could it be from the Enchanted movie poster? (Cause I've been bad and direct linked it >:)) I'll change that after this.

Anyways, I'm thinking about putting up a Christmas layout, but with this layout being so special and all I'm not so sure. What do you think? Should I change it?? Let me know after the feast :)

Appetizer
What was the last game you purchased?

I bought a CD filled with mini games last. I think most are available Big Fish Games. That's a really long time ago though, before my thesis writing days. Hmm... The last game I remembered loving from that CD was Fairy Godmother Tycoon. Hey, I just noticed they have a new version of Mystery Case Files available. Goodie! But it was so much more fun playing it with my friends on the projector at campus, though :(

Soup
Name something in which you don’t believe.
Okay. Great. THIS is such a hard question! Hmm... okay. I don't believe that there are people in the world who don't like teddy bears. Seriously. Let me know if you don't like teddy bears. I'll argue. =))

Salad
If you could choose a celebrity to be your boss, who would you pick?
Err... I'm having enough trouble with my current boss, thank you very much. But maybe a good looking single male celebrity could be interesting. AND who knows what could happen next... :x

Main Course
What was a lesson you had to learn the hard way?

I could seriously think of 10 different topics to write about here. But I'll stick with one. Otherwise you'd be too full and might not be able to enjoy the dessert. Hahah. So, my lesson of the day is... Trust your instincts! I still have occasional problems with this. For some reason, I keep second guessing myself. This is particularly during tests and essays. I usually end up with my second answer, when the first answer was actually the correct one. So stupid of moi!

Dessert

Describe your idea of the perfect relaxation room.
First thing first. Air Conditioner! Jakarta is sooooo HOT! Next, a full-view window, preferably that looks out to a very nice view. I would also love to have the ceilings painted with clouds (there's a mall here who does very pretty clouds! I love it!), and then a very nice stereo playing all kinds of calming music. I would also require a comfortable sofa, carpets and wooden floors, a nice bed too, all decked in various cuddly stuff. WHICH includes lots of teddy bears, of course. And please do provide me tons of nice books, a laptop, and a cup of hot chocolate. Heaven.

Thursday Thirteen - 12th edition

2007-12-06T11:42:00.000+07:00

13 of my FAVORITE scenes of the movie ENCHANTED

WARNING! SPOILERS ahead! :D

Arriving in Manhattan - It's just too funny the way all the characters arrive from a pothole! Hahaha. Especially when Prince Edward and Pip came! LOL.
Welcome to New York - When what's his name... Morgan's dad... sarcastically said 'Welcome to New York!' and Giselle turned so happy!
Cancelling the Taxi - This is the scene where Morgan's dad (I still can't recall his name!) wanted to order a taxi for Giselle but then decided not to after seeing Giselle asleep on the couch.
City Animals - When Giselle sang her 'animal calling' tune and the animals that responded to her were Rats, Pigeons, Flies, and Cockroaches... so disgusting and yet so funny! And very clever too... instead of all the cute forest animals which you would definitely NOT find in the city. Hahah. And the way the cockroaches clean the bathtub! Ieeuuuwww... but still very interesting part of the movie.
The 'Magic' Shower - How the pigeons helped Giselle with the towel! So classic Disney and sooo cute. And the conversation about the shower... and then of course the scene where Giselle fell on top of that guy I still can't remember what he's name was.
The Dress - Hahaha. The curtains were so cute! And how she made such a nice dress in a flash. And then the next day when she made another dress and that guy (still don't know what his name is) just looks at it understandingly.
How Does She Know, You Love Her - The singing in the park scene! VERY beautiful!! And the white doves bringing the heart shaped flower? Too sweet.
Poison Apple - I find it very nifty how the apple changed from 2D animation to real apples just like that!
Pip's Drama - In which he tried to show the fat guy (great, I forgot his name too) trying to poison Giselle, and Edward just doesn't get it. Also, Pip's little squeaky voice where you can actually hear what he's saying.
You're Not Singing - When Edward finally found Giselle and started singing 'their' song but Giselle didn't chirp in. That's when you realize she was no longer in love with Edward.
A Date - Giselle: "Oh, Edward... before we go home, there's something that I'd like to do", Edward: "Name it my love, and you shall receive it" (or something like that), Giselle: "Well, I would like to go on a date", Edward (VERY happily): "Oh, a Daaaatteee...", Edward (suddenly shocked): "What's a date??" :))
An Emergency - Giselle asking Morgan for help, and Morgan taking out Dad's credit card. Morgan: "I know something better than Fairy Godmother. Dad said it's only for emergencies. And this is definitely an emergency!" Also the scene where Morgan asks if that's what it like to go shopping with your mother. And the boys are only after one thing dialog. Hahaha.
King and Queen's Ball - Again, VERY beautiful scene. And Giselle's dance with what's his name (okay, somebody please tell me his name??) and the guy suddenly starts singing!! (which shows that he's in love with Giselle). Followed by, of course, the True Love's Kiss. Aaaahhh... how sweet...

AND as a bonus, I also liked the extras about what happened with everyone else. Especially Prince Edward and what's her name? Also, how happy Giselle and Morgan and her Dad were, opening the clothing store and having so many trees in their house :)

Wordless Wednesday - Blue Christmas

2007-12-05T11:26:00.000+07:00

Wordless Wednesday - Blue Christmas :)

Friendster Apps

2007-12-04T18:32:00.000+07:00

Friendster is definitely suffering as people move their interest to Facebook. And alas, today I found out they have introduced Friendster Apps. They still have a very long way to go if they want to beat facebook, though...

Disneys' Enchanted

2007-12-03T16:10:00.000+07:00

I guess if I tell you that I watched this movie twice two days in a row, there shouldn't be much left to say, right? Right. I loved this movie. I think it's this one complete package. There's some 2-D animation, there's real life, and there's complicated strikingly beautiful 3-D animations too. It's a love story, a fairy tale no doubt, a comedy in so many ways, an action movie, a musical, a fantasy movie, a horror movie, and so much more all cramped into 1 hour and 47 minutes. It's terribly romantic yet full of wit and wisdom, and not too mention extremely clever puns! Even though the ending was a bit predictable, it is still full of surprises and twists, at least when you first saw it :P -- And of course I laughed happily ever after!

Actually I wanted to post more here but due to time constraints, more on Disney's Enchanted this Thursday as I post my 13 Favorite Scenes from the movie. And if you haven't seen it, please go and watch it before you come back to read my TT.

Oh, and if I didn't convince you well enough (after all it is only the first time ever I wrote a movie review and I'm not even sure I'd convince myself with this short post), check out more reviews at Rotten Tomatoes!

The Woes of Weekend

2007-12-03T15:34:00.000+07:00

I had a VERY tiring weekend. Well actually it was pretty much a mixture of good things and bad things. Saturday I had an awesome lunch for free and watched a wonderful movie for free too. Plus, I had a taste of the wonderful Peppermint Mocha Frapuccino from Starbucks. All this in exchange for a long useless business meeting and accompanying my business guest on a hunt for a t-shirt. Yet, at night, just as I was ready to watch the movie Zoom on HBO (I've been looking forward to it) - My boss called and asked me to do the most useless things a boss could ask you to do on a Saturday night when you have been doing lots of things the whole day and you're looking forward to a funny movie and a good night sleep. On top of that, whenever I'm very, very tired and am forced to persevere, I short circuit. I would break down in a never ending flow of tears. And of course when I finished what I was supposed to do (in tears), the movie was finished. I went to bed still crying.

Sunday morning I was okay. Had to wake up VERY early for church, followed by Sunday School. We put the two sixth grade classes together which means I was facing a class of about roughly 36 kids. My colleague who's supposed to do the MC lost her voice so I volunteered. Luckily we had a microphone system there for some unknown reason. I was a bit annoyed by the fact that my colleague who told the lesson didn't cooperate well with my introduction, but anyways. Another good thing was having Josh there. Although maybe that's a bad thing, cause it made me realize that I still love him. But that would be a very long and different story so lets focus back on my weekend.
After Sunday School, we (mom+me+bro) planned to go to the movies to watch Disney's Enchanted (I saw it on Saturday and promoted). Sounds like a pretty good Sunday, right? Right, except that all along in between my boss keep messaging me with all kinds of questions (read: I was 'working' on Sunday!!)

Nevertheless, I completely forgot about my weekend this morning as I happily had a lovely breakfast (raviolis), played lovely violin if I must say so myself, enjoyed a warm shower and went about town running some errands. And let's not forget that wonderful Smoked Chicken Melt Foccacia Sandwich I had which was just HEAVENLY. Now if only I could get my hands on a Peppermint Mocha Frapucinno, I'd be happy and content. But I can't, for the fear of gaining weight and losing money. Firstly, of course, it's pretty expensive. Secondly, mom's paying me 200,000 for every kg I lose... so if I don't get the Frapucinno I'll be saving money twice, figuratively speaking.

So instead... let me fill you in on my review of the movie I saw twice this weekend aka Disney's Enchanted, right after this, while I contemplate whether or not I should get myself that Frapucinno while I still can...

Friday Feast #170

2007-11-30T12:30:00.000+07:00

Appetizer
What is your favorite carnival/amusement park ride?
I'm going to have to say The Merry Go Round cause it's the first thing that came to mind...

Soup
How do you react in uncomfortable social situations?
Hmm... that would really depend on what the situation is. I'd probably laugh sheepishly and try to get away from there unnoticeable and ASAP, though :P

Salad
On a scale of 1-10 with 10 being highest, how much do you enjoy discussing deep, philosophical topics?
I'd say about 6. Except that deep, philosophical topics usually end up being humorous once you bring them up with me. Hahaha. And then of course there were those times when I'd make some philosophy up from the most ridiculous things. But that's another story :))

Main Course
Did you get a flu shot this year? If not, do you plan to?
No, and no. In fact, I didn't even know there's a flu shot available. Hmmm...

Dessert
Approximately how many hours per week do you spend watching television?
Umm, depending on how busy I am during the week, I'd say about 14... but that's only because mom always has the TV on at night so I would watch while doing other things too :)

What my iTunes says

2007-11-30T11:27:00.000+07:00

I'm snagging this off this blog, simply because I love these kind of game :P

The Rules:

1. Put your iTunes/ music player on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT
(this is in capital letters, so it is very serious. No hiding your showtunes, folks!)

After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to do the meme themselves!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
I Don't Care - Ricky Martin

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Unforgettable - Nat King Cole

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Heavy Tango - Paris Jazz Big Band

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
For You I Will (Confidence) - Teddy Geiger

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
I'll Be There For You - FRIENDS Theme Song

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Find Your Way Back - Michelle Branch

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
I'll Never Get Over You Getting Over Me - Bellefire

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
My Generation - Starfield

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Ain't No Sunshine - Susan Wong

WHAT IS 2+2?
Me and My Boyfriend - Mocca

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Carry You Home - James Blunt

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bridge Over Troubled Water - Old Style Love Songs

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Try Too Hard - Teddy Geiger

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Raincloud - Lighthouse Family

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Take My Hand - Dido

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Those Were The Days - Old Style Love Songs

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
On The Wings of Love - Jeffrey Osborne

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Hold Me, Kill Me - U2

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
You are My Refuge - Maranatha! Singers

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Tangled - Maroon 5

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Lonely No More - Rob Thomas

I'm not tagging anyone cause I wasn't tagged to do this, but feel free to grab it... or to tag me with anything, if you'd like :P

stuff

2007-11-30T10:52:00.000+07:00

First, I just noticed I had Amy twice on my TT list yesterday. Oops... :(

Second, see my WW post below? I thought I had to make clear that THAT is a real baby. And that was her actual 'pose'. I did not manipulate the photo at all. I just pasted the Cabbage Patch Kid next to her. I'm still amazed to this moment at how similar they look like. Hahaha :))

Third, speaking of babies... if you have a facebook account, you might know that they have this application called make a baby. Well, I randomly invited friends to mate, and this morning I received a surprise in the form of the most angry little baby I ever saw on facebook:

I sure hope she'd look better after a few pokes! :D

Thursday Thirteen - 11th edition

2007-11-29T16:47:00.000+07:00

Whoa. I almost forgot that it's a Thursday! I don't know what to post today, either... Let's see... how about...

13 random people's TT, and my 'answer' to their title

Natalie - What I like about the Holidays: PRESENTS! :D
Amy - My passions: Umm... teddy bears? and books. And of course, GOD.
Amy - My passions: Umm... teddy bears? and books. And of course, GOD.
Leah - List of things to do with Christmas approaching: Force mom to get the Christmas tree out and start decorating it!
Twisted Cinderella - My Creations: Hmm... I can't top that... haven't been creating anything lately.
Nicholas - Thirteen MOVIE DVDs From My Collection: 13 would be too many, so instead, the movie I own on DVD that I last watched: Forrest Gump (I watched it yesterday on TV, though)
EHT - 13 Events in the Bible That Are Confirmed Elsewhere: Very interesting! How it fits my current interest. Will come back and read some more.
Carolan - Thirteen Random Things That Happened On My Birthday: 1940 Walt Disney's Fantasia debuted (from InfoPlease).
No Nonsense Girl - Thirteen truths that have changed my life: God is working behind everything happening in our lives.
Andrea - a few of my favorite things: see my answer to things I'm passionate about :P
Mom not Mum - Thirteen Concerts I've Been To: This would be filled by Classical concerts.
Bethany - Thirteen Random Things: Doing this TT actually got more complicated than I thought it would be. AND I need to head off to check up on work...
Morgan - Celebrity Crushes:Keanu Reeves was the first, Archie Kao the latest :)

Wordless Wednesday

2007-11-28T18:41:00.000+07:00

My first attempt on a wordless wednesday:

Biblical Joy

2007-11-27T17:54:00.000+07:00

Look at what mom got me for Christmas!!

That's a Parallel Bible in Indonesian and NIV (My first parallel bible ever!), as well as an Indonesian version of the Rainbow Study Bible. Oh, and of course I'm aware that Christmas is still about 28 (?) days to go, but mom went to the distribution office of the Indonesian Bible Society and bought these, as well as a bunch of other stuff including a 9-volume-set of the handwritten bible (we actually wrote part of it YEARS ago... I can't remember which part, though). So yeah, what an awesome early Christmas present.

Also, my order from ChristianBooks.Com has arrived safely in the hands of my cousin, who'll be here on Dec 15. So that's two more bibles to look forward to!

Speaking of bibles, I also sent off the registration form for a Master's degree in Biblical Studies today. If all goes well, I should be starting that course around April next year. Meanwhile, I'm indulging myself in the reading of the many bibles I now own :)

Picture Personality

2007-11-26T13:24:00.000+07:00

Somewhat similar to VisualDNA, I reckon... but fun anyways... now if only I can find my visualDNA results to compare...

Temperament

Flexible

Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.

Interests

Simple

You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement

Thoughtful

You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion

Physical

You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

Thursday Thirteen - 10th edition

2007-11-22T13:53:00.000+07:00

Yeps. I've made my decision. Here's my Weight Loss Plan (WLP) in 13 Steps! Hahaha :D

I need to lose about 10 kgs until the end of this year.
So that's 5kgs each month. *fingers crossed*
Otherwise, mom will FORCE me to go to the nutritionist/doctor who just so happens to be my ex-crush's Dad (which I would like to avoid, thank you very much!)
So... I will be swimming every other day...
and doing Yoga or some other form of exercise in between.
For each 2.5kgs I lose and retain, I will reward myself something special.
Which is not a food item, and will be no more than 50,000 rupiah in value.
I shall limit my consumption of chocolate... to one piece a day!
Also, I will drink a lot of water.
and ban sugary drinks (this will also fulfill a point on my 101 things to do list)...
except for my daily intake of Vitamin C, and perhaps some juices.
I will only eat ice cream once a week (unless somebody offers me some ice cream, which I shall not refuse).
And of course, no vigorous snacking :D

busy weekend!

2007-11-20T11:15:00.000+07:00

On Saturday, I had to wake up early in the morning because I had to go to my (old) university to judge at an English Story Telling competition. It was a great experience and I loved every single minute I spent there, even if I got tired of listening to 'Little Red Riding Hood' and 'Cinderella'. This has sparked my interest in being an English teacher, and am now pursuing some information from my former English lecturer about it.

Sunday, I had to go to church early morning as usual, followed by teaching Sunday School, and then immediately there was a choir practice which lasted about 3 and half hours... and once I got home, I had to prepare myself because a friend of mine was getting married. The party was so crowded that it was hard to get some food. My friend was very pretty and very happy even if she seemed to treat the event like it's a game (at least to my eyes). Am happy for her, though... and praying for a great life ahead of her. As for me, I had a great time hanging out with all the people I knew who were there (a lot of them, actually!)

Monday, my boss attacked me with stuff to do... which wasn't that much eventually, and I spent the rest of the day working on the layout of the Sunday School Devotion Book I had to finish.

Today... I'm very sleepy and tired and bored and am seriously thinking about my job. I am trying to enjoy my job, but I haven't succeeded yet. And deep down inside... the English Teacher option seems a good one. Otherwise I'm also thinking about becoming a writer, or a designer. Anything that is part-time and allows me to work at my own pace. And that I enjoy. And where there's no boss telling me things which just confuse me. Oh, and of course there's still another thing I would like to pursue... BIBLE STUDY! Yes, I am actually thinking of taking a Master's Degree course in this. Or any other Theological programs, for the matter. Hmmm... dreams, dreams, dreams and plans, plans, plans...

Friday Feast #169

2007-11-16T12:31:00.000+07:00

Appetizer
What was your first “real” job?
Hmm... what does "real" mean? My first internship was unpaid, but it was the time I first 'tasted' a job. And to the guests at the hotel, there was no sign that I was a trainee at all. So in that sense, my first job would be a butler at a luxury boutique hotel in the Rosewood group.
On the other hand, I first got paid while doing my 2nd internship. That would be as a waitress at a Conrad hotel.
Or... if you're talking after school has finished, that would be my current job. A manager at a fine art gallery.

Soup
Where would you go if you wanted to spark your creativity?
To sleep :P
Or swimming in my backyard pool. I find the water very calming and thus inspiring. The bad thing is... I wouldn't be able to write down any ideas as quickly.

Salad
Complete this sentence: I am embarrassed when…
My mom talks about me having to lose weight with (not so much) a stranger. Like she did last night with this doctor who has helped some of our church members lose weight who just happens to be the father of my first crush ever! How's that for embarrassment??

Main Course
What values did your parents instill in you?
Err... that I need to lose weight while I'm still young before it's too late and I get very, very sick? Hahah. I'm seriously annoyed by this notion, you see... but anyways, mom thought me awesome values that made me the person I am today. So yeah.

Dessert
Name 3 fads from your teenage years.
Oh. Wow. I don't remember any. Seriously. Sorry... :(

Thursday Thirteen - 9th edition

2007-11-15T12:03:00.000+07:00

It's a wordless TT on my B'day (13.11.07) :D

anticipation is the greatest pleasure

2007-11-12T19:54:00.000+07:00

What is that, you ask? That is the bunch of this that will officially be mine in... hmm... 4 hours!! Hahaha. Yeps. B'day presents. Aren't they lovely?

Of course I seriously mean I have 8 boxes of b'day presents and a bunch of other stuff like balloons and candies and a princess tiara. And yes, those numbers on the left corner is how old I will be. Tee hee... I'm childish, I know. And I like it that way.

Those presents are the ones I bought for myself with the help of mom's b'day money. We made it this kind of tradition for me to get a specific amount of money each year (the exact amount depending on mom's discretion) to buy stuff for my b'day. I would usually chip in with my savings or just at random sometimes, to result in the delightful thing called my b'day present(S) :D

Another one of my b'day traditions is to have goodie bags and lots of candies for my friends. This started in high school. My 17th b'day, I think, when I thought "Wouldn't it be cool to celebrate in a very childish way??" - I bought candies and chocolates and small presents and threw all of them in a large box, opened the box during lunch break and let everyone dig in!

The next year, I prepared small bags filled with snacks, so it was just like when we were in elementary school. My freshman year I put a (HUGE) glass jar filled with candies at the student lounge. The whole university celebrated my b'day. Hahah. The candy thing was so unique to me that most people said they're going to miss my b'day candies after I graduated. Well, my closest pals need to fret not coz I have a surprise in store for them tomorrow!

Oh yes, I do plan each and every one of my b'days with precision to ensure that I get what I want. Of course I kinda feel like getting a surprise b'day party thrown or something, but the fear of people forgetting my b'day is too big I just HAVE to prepare everything. The downside? I will never be surprised during special days (this includes also my farewell during my internship in S'pore). Except, well, last year, for example, my classmates did surprise me with a happy b'day song and a lovely teddy bear. So yeah, I'll delight in that.

The thing about b'days is: at this particular moment (3 hours and 45 minutes to my b'day) I don't really feel very much. I'm numb. Just like it's every other day (except of course I'm blogging about my anticipation, so it is something special). But when I go to sleep later, and wake up... there's always this funny fuzzy feeling. Oh yes... I love that feeling. I can't help but wonder if anyone else out there might feel the same way too? Hmm...

Well, better take my shower and get to sleep now... the sooner my b'day comes, the better. Right? Right :)

Friday Feast #168

2007-11-09T12:27:00.000+07:00

Appetizer
Which snack do you like to get when you go to the movies?
Popcorn. And I love it in Singapore cause you can opt to have sweet and salty ones in one box. Here it's just plain salty ones.

Soup
What year did you start using the internet?

Umm... 1998, I think? Probably earlier.

Salad
What is your first name in Pig Latin?
Err... I'm lost... Help, anyone?

Main Course
Name something you are picky about.
Teddy Bears! Hahaha. Actually, I love all teddies, but I get picky when I have to choose which one to buy from the shelf.

Dessert
Fill in the blanks: I ____ ____ yesterday and I ____ ____ today.
I was sleepy yesterday and I am sleepy today. Seriously.

Thursday Thirteen - 8th edition

2007-11-08T11:10:00.000+07:00

I am so not going to let anything keep me from TT-ing this week. In fact, I'm up to posting a double edition to make up for last week :D

Thirteen Things That Happened on My Trip to Singapore

Our flight was delayed

And only because of 4 people who just happened to arrive late because they were busy carrying some traditional cakes... thankfully, they realized that the plane was late because of them. As Singaporean say, they were very pay see (meaning: ashamed).
I got acquainted with Ms. Kartika Affandi

Who is the daughter of the painter Affandi, and also her children. Of course, it only comes natural as my uncle (aka Boss) was hosting her for the book launch. I did find it very unfair that she got all the attention during our event there seeing that she only decided to come after receiving payment from my uncle. But what can I say... the perks of being someone famous' daughter, right?
I learned to 'take care of things'

Like handling the check in and all the payments, also doing things I never did before like actually perusing the Business Centre at the hotel. During this particular stay, I think it is the first time we really 'utilized' the hotel staff by having so many requests. Hahah.
We stayed at a very special room

Not because it was located at the Club Floor and thus we got L'Occitanne amenities, but rather because of the room number. It was room 1113. And that would be my birth date. Cool, right? I had to take a pic.
I strained my ankles (yes, both of them)

I fell down on the pedestrian walkway on my way back to the hotel after a teddy bear shopping spree. It was so embarrassing (thankfully not many people were there to see it happen). And sadly it still hurts a bit until now :(
I had to do a speech in front of a whole bunch of important people!

The story was, one of our writers, Prof.-Dr. Astri Wright, was unable to come to the book launch, but she sent her greetings via e-mail and I got to read it. What was really fun is, as she saluted a bunch of people in the speech, I decided to lead everyone in clapping as I read each paragraph. So I was leading all these VIPs in clapping! Hahaha. I had a good time.
I got to play camerawoman too!

and take care of the lighting for the special launching event. Lots of fun. Nuff said.
Of course, I got a bunch of teddies

About 20 pcs, I reckon. Most of them are Ty's, but I also got this whole series of tin toys teddies. And a very special lil fellow who is a limited edition number 3/750 from this German company (I forgot the name). As I mentioned earlier, most of them are still tucked away for my birthday present, so pics later.
Also, we bought a S$1,800 violin

Thanks to the man selling who said the violin costs 'thousand eight' which we assumed was S$1,008 instead of S$1,800. Hah. My brother got very lucky of course to receive that present on top of his Givi which we had bought earlier. Anyways, I started taking violin lessons so in the future I might be using that violin too!
I did NOT get to meet most of my friends

They bailed out on me last minute. Pretty sad. I managed to drop by the restaurant we used to work at though and say hi to some people (not many are left there who I know, anyways). I didn't even manage to contact the guy I used to have a huge crush on. Not that he really mattered that much.
I got to speak Singlish, obviously

Yes, that actually made me somewhat happy. Again, lots of fun.
I took the MRT to the airport

I love the MRT. If only they have something like this here in Jakarta.
My aunt decided to give me all the leftover cash

That amounted to about S$150, and with the tax return we received, I managed to buy several teddies, a magazine and also this book I've always wanted to buy. I even brought some cash back home which is now allocated for my birthday lunch with my friends.

And speaking of my birthday... (this coming TUESDAY!!)

Thirteen Things I'd LOVE to Receive on My Birthday but Probably Won't (Unless YOU Would Like to Buy it for Me) - from amazon.com

TNIV True Identity Bible

I'm reading the teen True Images version and at 23 I think I should read this version now, you think?
A Lifetime of Secrets: A PostSecret Book

When will this book be available here??
Revolve 2008

Just because.
Maple the Ty Bear

and also...
Magee the Ty Bear

and a whole bunch of other Ty bears, too... or any other teddy bears, for the matter.
Famous Bears and Friends

just found it randomly and seems pretty interesting.
Pointe Shoes

What can I say... it's a childhood dream of mine!
Canon Photo Printer

Could definitely come in handy.
That Thing You Do! DVD

I want this. I want this. I WANT THIS! It's even on my 101 Things To Do list.
Godiva Chocolates
The Story of Art

Saw this at the bookstore yesterday and it seems quite interesting.
Messengers of Faith

Definitely a cool something to take to the Sunday School class.
Amazon Gift Certificate

Who knows what else I might find? :P

The truth is I've never bought anything off Amazon before thanks to the shipment cost which is way too expensive :(

Happy TT, everyone!

Dona Nobis Pacem

2007-11-07T15:23:00.000+07:00

I can't believe I forgot to post on Blogblast for Peace. I'm backdating this post, of course.

What happened, you might ask?

I supposed I've been busy. My mind's been preoccupied. And on November 7th, 2007, all I remembered was that it's my friend's birthday and that I'm meeting up with my university pals for lunch.

So anyways, today... I vow to live in peace with myself and with the world (even though that would include my co-worker I'm having such a hard time being at peace with)... because it really does depend on each of ourselves, no?

Oldies Goodies

2007-11-06T20:13:00.000+07:00

So in the hope of finding a layout code suitable for the gallery's website I'm working on (actually, I finished a very simple layout, but mom's given me some pretty dazzling ideas and I really WANT it to work out), I dug up some of my old blogs.

Yes, believe it or not, I've been around since 2001. No wait, actually earlier. I had personal websites those days, and then I roamed around pitas, and now I'm here. I'm so happy to see that pitas still keeps all the archives. I'm thinking of saving them, though... just in case. But maybe later. Anyways, I'm going to look over the fact that this might reveal to you my real name and some details of my life, and here they are for your reading pleasure (they used to be great for your seeing pleasure too, but unfortunately most of the servers I used have died so all the images are broken): Going Bananas, think of me fondly, and (not yet) insane!

I can't really remember, but I think I had several more blogs too. I was bad, I know. Kept quitting and reappearing but changing my address for some unknown reason. Nana might have a better memory of all my blogs. She's been with me through it all. And I still remember how we first met. I reviewed her site on Xanga (which wasn't such a good review). Hahaha... look how we've grown, Na!

work has, as you can see...

2007-11-03T17:15:00.000+07:00

robbed me from the joy of joining Thursday Thirteen and Friday's Feast this week :(
and now... I'm sitting here being lazy as always. It's raining, and seriously I feel like going to sleep. Wouldn't that be lovely?? But I should get my task done before my boss asks for it, don't you think?? But I'm too lazy... I'm hoping he'll forget about it altogether. Arrgh.

Funny thing is, whenever I feel like work is getting the better of me, I'm reminded how lucky I actually am. And I'm happy for that. As always.

slacker

2007-10-29T16:22:00.000+07:00

Been slacking off at work today. I kinda feel like I deserve it though... and yet still, I feel uneasy about it too. Oh, well. It's raining VERY heavily today, almost like yesterday in Singapore. Except in Singapore you could still travel (read: walk around) even in heavy rain by perusing their underground passes and linked malls. I'm worried about how my staff is going to reach home in this heavy rain. Should've sent her home earlier but it didn't occur to me at all!!

Report on Singapore coming up this Thursday on a TT post, and report on all the things I bought (read: teddies!!) will be on my birthday cause I tucked everything away as my b'day present :)

Speaking of teddies, would anyone be kind enough to buy me THESE?? It would make my day!